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I forgot about this account and abandoned it </3

"why do I run back to you like I don't mind if you fuck up my life
          Why am I sucker for all your lies 
          Strung out like laundry on every line, why do I come back to you, like I don't mind if you fuck up my life"

Hai is me I wubs chu

Lmao having a series of panic attacks and overthinking and not being able to say anything because I don't wanna be selfish is g r e a t

I hate me

Kojack deserves to d i e he's a worthless piece of shit that only hurts people and makes everything worse. I hate him I hate him I hate him he should die.

"And I'll continue to numb myself for everyone else's sake, I'll bottle it up and battle the voices in my head until I break and end up dead"

"y'know, i think everyone just forgets about my existence until it gets too much and I tap them on the shoulder and go "hey, I'm here too" and even then I think I'm gonna be drug down to the gates of hell and left just for wanting someone to validate my feelings and honestly its a shitty way to exist."

"where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and i would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life"

Oh wow I feel unwanted rn-