I wish I didn't hurt them and was a better person. I hate myself for fucking everything up, and they probably hate me too. I hope they aren't hurting like I am. This is all my fault; they deserved better than me. I wish I wasn't like this and I wish I could've tried for you. I failed.

"In my eyes, indisposed, in disguises no one knows. Hides the face, lies the snake, in the sun in my disgrace. Boiling heat, summer stench, 'neath the black, the sky looks dead. Call my name through the cream, and I'll hear you scream again. Black hole sun, won't you come, and wash away the rain? Black hole sun, won't you come? Won't you come? Won't you come?"