Holy Fricken Faist It's Mike Faist

It’s my birthday today!!!! 
          Honestly, I was expecting to wake up to lots of texts and stuff my friends and families saying happy birthday, but I guess not. It’s fine though. At least my great grandmother got to call me. I’m a bit sad though, this year was supposed have my  quinceañera but with this global pandemic that couldn’t happen. My grandmother, who I haven’t seen in years, was supposed to come but since  this thing is still happening she wasn’t able to come. Now I just found out that my grandparents aren’t coming because my dads here. My dad had an affair with some slut and so they’re still mad about that. So since he’s here they won’t come. My aunt always “forgets” our birthdays, so she’s not coming. Who knows about my other aunt. We’re also poor so it’s not much, but it’s enough for me. I love what my parents did and I’m so damn grateful for what they’ve done. 

I’m sad right now and I guess slightly jealous. I feel so ducking stupid. My older brother was almost in all AP classes when we were going to a high school but then ended up changing to a different high school. So no AP classes for him. Also, we just a got a letter from a high school stating that he got accepted. He’s in 6th grade!!!!! We think it was sent to the wrong place seeing as how it says that students take the placement test when they’re in 8th and 9th grade. I was always seen as the smart one in our family but now I feel stupid. Maybe if I did talk in class instead of being in the background I would’ve been in AP classes. Maybe if I told my teachers that I already knew everything that they were teaching us I would’ve been in AP classes. Maybe if I wasn’t a fucking mistake I’d be in AP classes. Maybe if I didn’t go through placement tests quickly just to get it over with, then I might be in AP classes. Maybe if I wasn’t stupid I might’ve been in AP classes. A bunch of people might say that I’m smart but I’m not. I wish I was in AP classes and regret ever being quite. This is the only time I ever really talk because outside of Wattpad I don’t talk. So I’m sorry if I’m bothering you guys with my problems and rants. I’m doubting wether or not I should post this. Well, I guess I am posting this. :/

Me: *has natural resting bitch face* 
          Dad: gets mad at me for giving him “that look”

I’m back! Well, kind of... I’ve got so many things I’m dealing with at home. Sorry I haven’t been able to respond to people. As said before I’m dealing with so many stuff right now and I’ve been really stressed out. Thanks to the many new followers! I hope that you guys are all safe, take care and thanks again to everyone who’s stayed and didn’t leave and thanks to those who understand. 

//HELLO! I have a question!! Would you like to roleplay with me? We could do DEH, or we could possibly do The Outsiders, considering that's my favorite book too!

Happy Valentine’s Day, I mean single awareness day 

Merry Christmas and happy holidays. Hope your Christmas/day is going better than mine so far!

Happy late Halloween!!!! Well for me at least and for the rest of my town. Halloween was canceled for us because of the horrible weather we had. It snowed at least 2 inches of snow and it was 5 degrees. So they moved it to today. I got lots of candy! I hope you had a great day today!

My mom is making me and my brothers take fall pictures. She’s making me wear something I’m really uncomfortable wearing. I asked if I could wear something more comfortable, but she wouldn’t let me. I also tried compromising, but she still said no. This is literally conversation we just had:
          Me: I don’t feel comfortable wearing this
          Mom: Well, you have to wear it. It’s my pictures.
          Me: *thinking in my head* well, it’s my body.
          
          I don’t feel comfortable wearing this. I’m not a thot. I don’t want to wear this. My mom would rather I feel uncomfortable, look like a thot, and get a good picture than me feeling comfortable and feeling good about myself. If I wanted to look like a thot then I’d be one. I know I’m complaining over nothing, but I just don’t feel comfortable. I’d rather feel comfortable in what I wear instead of feeling uncomfortable.

Today’s my very first homecoming dance as a freshman!!!! If you want to see a picture of my dress I’ll see if I can put a few pictures into my drawing book later today. The dress is my mom’s dress for semi-formal when she went to high school.