I was just doing some clerical work in organizing my writing ideas, I think I have five stories happening at the same time? And technically A Silent Countdown is book one in a five part series, so that's a plus four. Nine open concepts.
And yesterday I posted a cleaned up version of chapter three/September of "HIAH HIAH I'm", which is great, and I WANT to have the next chapter ready in five days.
Unrealistic, and the chapter December is so much larger in length than the others so this is quite foolhardy to anticipate locking into timelines in such a format.
Furthermore, there is a story, dark fantasy style, which I have contemplated at length without actually writing it out in depth beyond rewriting the major plot web. One which grows upon each consecutive attempt, as if I'm trying to hold back and the damn is overflowing.
It feels like I took a moments rest and now I enter my writing and I'm ten levels higher than I was, so not I look at my own work in disgust.
I honestly don't know how a career author can handle that sensation. Publishing a book then locking it in as the way that it is at that time, reading back on it years later and cringing in horror.
Do you think professional authors are afraid of reading their first published book for fear of embarrassment?
My solution to not being disappointed in myself is to give it my best, since you can't ask for more than my best, it's my best. But if my capacity increases so sharply, that comparative best becomes pitiful.
Anywho, this is a warning that I will not be reliable on the timeline because I feel inspiration for the dark fantasy story UwU, yes it's name is an acronym of UwU because I think it's funny and I dislike titling things. My last substack post was titled "Writing" cause I put something in the title box then did the actual writing, posting it before looking it over again. Whoops.
This is long, I should go away. Kay bye!
I might rant more on substack, there's no character limit there UwU
