LoreleiDay

I just realized that Yellow Butterflies currently has the same amount of poems as Peaceful Scenic Poetry.

How r u doin' lately btw

Bro u're definitely high
          WHAT DO U MEAN U CAN'T WRITE GOOD POETRY ANYMORE?
          
          I LITERALLY ENVY UR TALENT
          
          Ur range has no limit to it
          
          And I secretly read ur new book too
          The amount of imagery u've added?! U're so good at it!!!! Also somehow ur slant rhymes feel far more appealing than proper rhymes
          And the fireplace poem? Dayumn girl, who r u fooling?!?! U're so good at writing 
          
          And the fact that how many masterpieces u've written already in such a short span despite having written so many books already 
          
          Which means that u're still never out of ideas
          
          That is FREAKING CRAZYYYY 

I’m gonna brush my teeth now

I need friends so I can text them this shit in the middle of the night instead of spamming you all I’m sorry

Well actually it’s only 3:44, but I doubt she’d see it that way

Sorry guys I’ll try to calm down now before my mom realizes I’m still awake at 4 AM

I’m just gonna dance in my bathroom mirror. Even though it’s almost four AM. That’s always a little fun I guess. Lalalalallalalal I don’t know what to do with my FUCKING LIFE

I’m going insane! WHY CAN’T I WRITE ANYTHING GOOD ANYMORE????????? And where is everyone? My notifications box has been empty for two days. Maybe everyone is having this problem. I bet I’ll delete this shit in the morning when I’m calm again. Maybe I actually am bipolar. That’d explain why I fall in and out of depression so often. And why sometimes I feel hiiiiiiiiiigh on life for no fucking reason. And why am I even crashing out on here???? This is stupid what the fuck? I can’t even show my family my writing because it’s got inappropriate shit and it’s depressing and they would hate it and think I have problems and I would be sad af which is stupid to worry about because I could turn sad af any time for no reason because life sucks and we’re all gonna die but at least I have my poetry, right? WRONG! Nothing is in my fucking brainnnnnnnnn

Guys, the depression used to be the root of my creative flow, but I think it stole it now. :(((( How do I get it back???? The sadder I was, the better my writing was. The problem is, I clung onto it so tight… I don’t know how to write when my head is above the water.