Lotus Flower🌺

I originally decided to no longer work on this passion project due to lack of engagement. But I decided to work on it again in remembrance of Grandfather who recently passed away in November from Cancer. I'm seeing it as my form of closure 
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New re-upload 
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I'm debating to take all my work off of Tumblr, the comments are 95% of people sending racial hate comments, and I can count on my hand multiple times a was called the Hard "R" or it was mentioned in my comments, It's a lot of weirdos over there, I think I preferred to be left unread than deal with that. 
          
          For context; a lot of black, poc, (mostly female) writers and Creators are currently being drove of Tumblr, literally cause we just.....created our own creative spaces and certain "people" don't like that apparently. 

I honestly want to try again with this project. I was mainly posting it on Tumblr, but when I was currently writing on there, I was just sent threats and racial comments.....and they said I was spreading fake information...how?? Hell, if I know. It was just a let down that Six years of work was for nothing, but I really love writing about my history, with the way that the world currently is, it'll probably be erased again.
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Saturday was my Grandpa's funeral. It was a quick and simple service, I unexpectedly went up and gave a small speech, I didnt have anything prepared (because I didnt plan on going up there to say anything) but I was able to.
          
          It was a bit of closure for me, I thought I wasn't going to be able to make it through but when I sat there (it was a closed casket) I at least know he was at peace.
          
          I still won't be "Okay" for a while, but at least I made it through this part, saying goodbye 

Hi there, can you please check my story and give it a read ♥️

I've been away for a while.
          
          And recently my grandfather passed away after a long time battle with Cancer, I wasn't really prepared (I don't think we ever are) for how this was....well....how he's gone....It wad hard seeing him in hospice, I was just waiting for him to just sit up and say "Gotcha!"
          
          I would have given anything to hear his laugh one last time.
          
          And along with that, my friend that me and my partner that we've known since high school passed away as well, she passed back in July and I never knew, no one, not even her parents told me, (they were funny acting to begin with). I found out after not hearing from her for a while, she would often travel and go on cruises, she had a very active life, but I noticed she went quiet for a few months and after doing some digging, I found her obituary online and I found out she was gone, and I (and my boyfriend) never got to say goodbye to her. Even though people told me not to blame myself, I feel like I'll live with this feeling of guilt for the rest of my life.
          
          Currently. It feels like my world is falling apart around me. 
          
          Writing has always been my outlet, so....maybe I can try to do that....no matter how crappy it might be.
          
          Maybe I should try building my world again.

Today is my birthday....but it hasn't been a happy one...

Depression is a Bitch...

So, I wasn't going to give in to this whole live action Snow White BS. But I hope people know that the prince technically didn't "kiss snow white without her consent" as the "wokes" keep harping about. 
          
          It was a kiss goodbye. 
          
          Let me explain, 
          
          So if anyone have ever watched the original snow white, she basically wished for him when she was singing in the well, he didn't stalk her, he even said "Hello" and even tried to talk to her, Snow White got shy and she ran away, especially because she was dressed in rags. 
          
          Also when she kissed the dove on the beak, the dove then flew down and pecked him on the mouth, this technically was their first kiss even though it was indirect. And as the prince was singing to her, you can see the chemistry slowly blooming between the two.
          
          And as well, the queen witnessed it thus having the huntsman take her out into the Forest. So, imagine in the Prince's point of view, you just saw her a day or so ago and now she's all of a sudden missing for a very long time and after a year, you see that she's "dead". So he kissed her goodbye, and to the life they would've had together.
          
          (I watched snow white on VHS religiously as a child)
          
          And also in some religions and cultures, mainly in Orthodox Christianity, it's actually traditional for people to kiss the deceased loved one as a farewell.
          
          Now, if people really think it was wrong that the prince kissed snow white in the movie, I suggest they read the Grimms' version...that's all I'm going to say 
          
          Also side tangent, I also heard that they made Dopey not.....Dopey, just 'misunderstood' because God forbid we have a character play a dumb character in this day and age. (They said is was considered ablisim or something) I'm wishing for Disney's downfall after this, they ruined a core of my childhood with this dumpster fire.