LouisCarrotBae

hi
          so my name is [dan]

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So today I found out that I can't get back into my guitar class. It wasn't my choice to be taken out of it, but its because this semester I have 3 duel enrollment instead of 2. So I was taken out of NY favorite class rather than be taken out of AVID. I tried to go and get it changed back, but the lady said all the other duel enrollment classes are full, and she can't change it out for me. I'm so sad and mad. The only thing I have left at Armwood is Softball ⚾

Missing him ❤❤

The hardest thing is when you fall for someone and they lead you on. Then you talk to your friends about it and you find out he has a girlfriend. 
          ~Me  12-3-16

Wishing I wasn't single cause I wanna cuddle
          ~Me 12-1-16

I'm falling for him. AGAIN. I do things I shouldn't for him. At first, I thought it was just because he was one of my closest friends, but I have come to the realization that its the opposite. I cannot physical get the word "no" to come out of my mouth when he asks me something. I tried so hard to get over him, and it worked.... For a month. So here I am again, on my hands and knees at his beckon call. 
          ~Me 11-29-16

I'm having issues with my friends and myself. I feel that "my friends" are only my friends because I do stuff for them. I was sitting at lunch today all sad, when one of my friends asks me to throw something away for her. I did it, against my will, and she says "Love you." They are always talking about how I'm a giving person and all, but they exclude me from everything. They will be talking about something, bring me into the convo, and when I ask for context they say "nothing". I have always thought they just keep me around for emotional support and to do things for them. I don't know anymore and am done. There is one friend out there who knows who she is that is the exception. 
          ~Me 11-28-16

I don't even know why I'm writing this right now. No one understands, and I have one follower. I guess I'm writing this for others to see in the future. My best friend lied to me. And so I started watching the last performance one direction did before the break. I was trying to get myself to cry, and it worked, but not for the right reason. I was trying to cry about the situation that made me so mad, but as a result I started crying about one direction. What if they never get back together? They are my rock right now, and they will be for a long time. Their music hits me in a way I cannot describe, they are there when I am upset, but what if they don't come back? No new music, no concerts, no nothing. Yes they may shine as individuals, but it won't be the same. I jumped in the fandom about 3 months ago, and I have missed everything: The band merch in the stores, the concerts, and most depressing, the experience. I wish that I had jumped on the 1D fandom faster, cause now I find myself watching YouTube videos, and crying over so bad I want to meet them. I need them, and I can't tell anyone this, cause they will think I'm some crazy fangirl, not to add that it is so much worse cause I'm a directioner.
          ~Me 
          10-18-16

So my little Irish Babe dropped his single today. Let me say: Oh. My. God. A-freaking-mazing. I'm glad to see that he is enjoying his time off and pleasing his fans while doing it.
          Love you Irish Babe
          ~Me
          9-29-16