Hello! I know it's been a while and I just need somewhere to kinda just say all the things that I'm afraid to say out loud. So, I've been on an emotional rollercoaster for the past few weeks and eventually, I think that I may have made myself emotionally numb. I meant to do it at first, I started not letting myself cry and suppressing my emotions because I found it easier but now that I physically can't feel sad or happy(well ig that I can feel sad it's just more of an ache in my chest but then the numbing starts again after a few minutes). It's like I might laugh but I don't actually feel happy. I find it really hard to reach out for help so please, if there is someone who could just listen and give advice but please don't be like my therapist who says I'm overreacting. So, please. Help me through this maze of toxic people and dead ends.