LovelyUwUx

I'm (surprisingly) still alive! And I'm currently working on an Ethan Landry (scream 6) fanfic. I won't post it until I make more progress, but I'm literally obsessed with that man.

Agostina_Pio

@LovelyUwUx  lol but and deidara?
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LovelyUwUx

OK.. how many of y'all would join if I made a discord server? I'll make it if theres like 5 people

Agostina_Pio

@LovelyUwUx I would gladly join!!
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Gojos_wife2

@LovelyUwUx I would love to join your discord, though I have to join from my Laptop on, because I can't have discord on my phone yet
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Minty0Fresh

@LovelyUwUx i will join but my mom ban discord from my phone- i can use Google she also ban that
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valletheproxy

Hey I came from a YouTube comment of yours where you wrote your wattpad @, and I just wanted to say one thing.
          
          I know I'm a stranger on the internet, but I really wish u the best in this world. I know it's may hard, cold and dark for you rn. I wish from my whole heart that you okay. 
          You don't know me but I really hope you stay, I care for you, please don't throw everything away. 
          
          I saw that your YouTube comment and your last post here were a month ago, I hope you doing good. 
          If there's a chance you read this, u can contact me if u want. Just please, take care. 
          
          <3

LovelyUwUx

@valletheproxy thank you so much for the kind words. I saw this a few days ago but it took me awhile to actually bring myself to respond. I'm doing a lot better now that I've taken some personal time to myself and thought things out. Again, thank you so much for the words. It means a lot to me knowing that somebody, even somebody online will take the time out of their day and hope that I'm okay!
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valletheproxy

@LovelyUwUx I hope I can hear from you
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LovelyUwUx

Im honestly posting this in hopes that nobody sees this, but I just want to end everything. Im so tired. So, so tired. I can't stop getting these thoughts every night, and every night that passes the more I feel as if my will to push through just dies off. Im starting to feel like nothing is worth it anymore. I feel like im going through so much right now, and yet Im this ungrateful teenager whose incredibly lucky in life. 
          
           I've been saying such things for so long, but I'm not sure it I'll make it past next december. Is it all really worth it? Will my friends really miss me? Im so scared. I want to accept it all and just cut all those feelings off. God, my hands are so cold. Please tell me how to get rid of this horrid feelings. Nothing is going well for me in life lately, and no matter how much I laugh, theres this feeling in my chest that tells me something isnt truly happy. Its a gross, icky, clouded feeling, and I hate it. 
          
           I tried to get help so many times, but I just cant anymore. I've hoped people saw those dark search histories within my account, but nobody did. I'm left in this spiraling depression, thinking of the "most painless ways." and "why I cant feel better." It really is foolish, isnt it? 
          
           God, It's embarrassing, really. How incredibly pathetic I constantly act. But please, help. I just need some words to help me. The drama just gets to me. The smallest words cut deeper than they should. I feel so worthless.

Agostina_Pio

@LovelyUwUx 
             Hello, more or less 1 year has passed and the truth is that it saddens me too much to know that you are going through something like this, or that you have gone through something like that. Even if I don't even know you, even if it's only online I feel really bad and I can't imagine that horrible feeling you must have.
             I wish you all luck and my blessings, I don't know if you're still there, but I hope so. Keep going. I trust you and I will be hoping that you have a better time now, I am not much good at helping people, since I am very unsociable, I have no friends and most of my family is gone, it did not affect me too much, but that is not the spot.
            I hope you can fight this and I will write it down and send it before more time passes. Please, seriously, it makes me really bad that someone feels this way, whoever it is. Remember that there is always hope, I just want you to feel better. Here a person online, really, wishes you to overcome this.
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LovelyUwUx

updated a new book!  
           The calm before the storm! 
          
          It's a Jujutsu Kaisen fanfiction,, probably gonna be FILLED with angst. Its a self-insert.. of course, with mainly Geto Suguru, then secondarily Gojo Satoru with the others being,, mainly background things. I'd appreciate it if you checked it out!