✨Beautiful blue jay✨

I am painfully single and I am getting a job soon at this berry/raspberry farm (pretty sure that's the name) but my dad is friends with the owner, and his wife was taking about me joining the family and work for them, mom and dad liked the idea so hopefully soon I can join. My allergies are going hay wire because of the seasons cashing and weather going from hot to cold. Also can't see out of one eye, everything is blurry. Wish me luck that everything gets better from me(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

Dude, does anyone have advice, my grandma thinks me and my guy friend are dating, I mean, he is attractive but my family doesn't know I have a gf already, me and her are both poly and I might be getting a little crush on him now, I know who he has a crush on and I feel like I should talk to my gf about this. Idk someone help me 

I am leaving my phone at school because of my parents, they went through my shit this morning and yelled at me for the smallest things that they found that they didn't like, so not only I feel uncomfortable to be in the same room but that I can't bring my own phone home with me now.

Wtf is my life, everything is going wrong, my depression is getting worse and my gf has shit to explain to me, she's, well both of us are poly, but every time I'm in a poly relationship I'm the one that gets kicked out of the relationship, she never asked me if I wanted a bf too and just told me the other night that she has one, and now she's not responding, what should I do??? Any advice anyone???

And poem that I made to show the pain I've been in for my entire life
          
          
          16 years with the PAIN
          
          It took me 16 years
          To understand
          What they meant
          When they said
          That monsters don't live
          Under beds
          Some days,
          I feel everything at once
          Other days,
          I feel nothing at all
          I don't know what's worse
          Drowning beneath the waves
          Or dying from the thirst
          Please don't
          Fall in love
          With
          Me
          Because
          I'm so very broken
          And I don't
          Want to brake you too
          
          

Yoooo, my phone finally let me download the app!!! I'm so happy 

So i lost the comment but yes I am a gremilin too >:3

I fucked up in my relationship....I wish I wasn't so fucking jealous all the time when other people talk to her, I fucking hate myself....Pretty sure she thought of breaking up with me.....I doubt that she wants to talk to me tomorrow.......what do I do......

Oh thx for following