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medj sad na here po hehe…
When Coco said, “I thought I wouldn’t need a paternal figure just to fulfill the missing pieces of myself but who am I kidding?” and “Pero pinaniwala ko ang sarili kong kaya kong mabuhay kahit na wala siya sa tabi ko. Akala ko makakaya ko hanggang sa makasanayan ko nang gawin ang mga pagpapanggap na iyon pero wala pala talagang forever.” — These lines hit something within me. When I was a kid, I thought that I was complete without my biological father. Hindi naman nagkulang ang lolo ko at mga tito ko upang mapunan ‘yong naiwang puwang ng tatay ko, pero now that they have their own family and my lolo is even barely affectionate (which I totally understand kasi may pagka-nonchalant talaga ang mga lolo), I can’t help but feel bad for feeling this way—for realizing that I might be feeling abandoned all along. Ngayon ko lang na-realize kasi na kahit they tried their best to guide me, to care for me, to provide for my needs—iba pa rin talaga kapag ‘yong biological father mo ang nandiyan para sa’yo haha. I’ve seen my friends with their papas, my classmates, and saksi ako kung paano sila bigyan ng princess treatment—‘yong ihahatid-sundo ka from school, ‘yong magbibitbit ng mga gamit mo, and every other things a loving father would do.
