Dearest readers,
My health has been critical the past few days, the doctors have advised me to go through my second chemotherapy but I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of struggling to live. I'm tired of being scared every night that I won't wake up the next morning. I'm tired of people looking at me with pity whenever I go out in the public in my wheelchair. I just want it all to end. No I won't be resorting to self-harm or suicide because I don't want to hurt my family more than they already are and nor do I want to burn in hell.
I want peace and I'm getting that by shutting everything and everyone out. I've stopping my therapies and I'm spending my days without a worry because now neither career nor college matters to me, because I know I won't live long enough to enjoy a proper life, fall in love, get married, have children and watch them grow.
So goodbye. I'm deleting the app and won't be able to reply to anyone. Just know that you are blessed with a long life and you should live it to the fullest. Be happy and grateful that you aren't suffering like some do.
This is me signing off forever,
Lillian
Goodbye