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Forgot to tell you all, but my little sister will be taking over this account :)
          Be nice to here ^^

Goodbye soldier. You will be missed

Guys..
          I'm gonna delete wattpad for a bit
          I'm pretty sure my teachers are gonna check what i have on my phone and as i'm sure of, they're all homophobic, so uh..
          Bye:(

Tujuh belas agustus tahun (19)45
          ITULAH HARI KEMERDEKAAN KITA!!!
          
          Hari merdeka! Nusa dan Bangsa!
          Hari lahirnya bangsa Indonesia!
          
          MEERRRRRRDEEEEKAA!
          
          Sekali merdeka tetap merdeka!
          Selama hayat masih dikandung badan..
          Kita tetap, sedia, tetap, setia!
          
          MEMPERTAHANKAN INNNDOONEESSIIIIAA!
          
          Kita tetap, sedia, tetap, setia!
          
          MEMBELA NEGARA KITAAAAAAA!
          
          
          English version for ppl who don't understand Indonesian:
          
          Seventeenth of August on year (19)45
          THAT IS OUR INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!
          
          Independence day! (Forgot) and Nation!
          The day Indonesias nation was born!
          
          INNNNDEEEEEPENNNNNDENCE!
          
          Once being independent always independent!
          As long as our body still contains our soul..
          We will stay Available, stay loyal!
          
          HOOOOOOLDING UP INNDOOONEEESIA!
          
          We will stay Available, stay loyal!
          
          DEFENDING OUR BELOVED COUNTRYYYYY!
          
          
          
          Ik Independence day is on August 17th, but who caress??

hey , hey , alex ! this is a similar post I'm gonna send to youra since I feel a bit lonely and want to say hi to the both of ya'll !
          
          it's been a while , hasn't it ? not a day goes by when I don't think abt u and reminisce over the memories we made ever since we met. ik things aren't so swell for u rn , but whatever comes in ur way , js keep ur head high and walk right thru those obstacles. I miss talking to u , and even though I'm busy w irl things myself , I still can't forget u. u're an amazing bestie , lub , and I couldn't have been luckier to have someone as special as u <3
          
          love ya , girl !!
          
          — ur best friend ,
               sea.

Crying because i have the urge to write something but 
          1. My motivation is gone
          2. My plots go nowhere
          3. My enjoyment for writing is gone
          4. My ideas are kinda bad ngl
          5. My message board already has me saying i won't update my books anymore
          
          The only solutions are:
          1. Writing about something i ACTUALLY enjoy(might not reads)
          2. Write something but not publish it until i finish EVERY single chapter(would take a while)
          3. Write nothing it at all(the idea is stuck in my head)

OMGA IT'S MICZERS BIRTHDAYYY!!!!
          AND AND TMRW IT'S ANGGERS(my irl bestie) BIRTHDAY!!!
          HAPPY BDAY TO BTOH OF YOU I LOVE YOU MWAH MWAH

I overthink a lot and and my irl best friend and i got into a small argument for just the laughs but i'm scared if it was genuinely a argument and they are mad at me
          
          I know they aren't, but i'm scared,
          I don't wanna lose her
          I don't wanna lose her
          I don't wanna lose her
          I need her.
          
          And fuck, i have this one online BSF and they barely talk to me anymore.
          
          I'm scared if i'll lose him. I know they love me but what if moon forgets about me.
          What if they end our friendship because our lack of touch.
          I care for them too much.
          I care for them too much.
          I don't wanna fucking lose moon, i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared fuck fuck fuck shit
          
          Why do i overthink about this so mmuch it's terrible i know they both won't leave me but fuck it hurts knowing we aren't as close as we used to be
          I love them too much/p
          
          I don't want to lose them
          
          Fuck
          
          If you two are reading this, give me a text please, a call, a voice message, anything.
          I'm desperate to know you still care for me.
          
          If i don't respond i probably had to go to bed or don't feel like talking

God i gotta rewrite TKTYH it's plot is going nowhere and there are so many unnecessary sentences in the writing as filler god i hate that book but i need to finish the next chapter :sob:
          I'm trying to force myself to finish it because well, I'm already around 1000 words in so i can't give up now
          
          Hang in there for me guys i'm trying
          (P.S to anyone who hasn't seen my last message/announcement i already lost interest/fell out of Nickloon and maybe the OSC altogether
          Yeah i sorta kinda maybe left the OSC)

Hey guys!!
          So sorry i haven't been on Wattpad for such a long time.
          I lost a LOT of motivation to use this platform.
          So i'm sadly gonna say, that most of my books will barely maybe even never be updated after this.
          I am so sorry. But although i don't want to do this, i kinda don't have any motivation anymore.
          So uhm..sorry that i kept you all waiting for updates for so long, but i have other interests and honestly people only know me for Nickloon, and i've already lost interest in Nickloon. Although yes, i still like the ship, i like other ships now, and i kinda don't want to be known for something i'm not fond of/not enjoying.
          Peace and Love, Alex.