Lucas Michaelis

sexuality... homicidal????

An ache
          So deep
          That I
          Can hardly breathe
          This pain
          Can't be imagined
          Will it ever heal?
          Ooh... ooh...
          Your hand
          So small
          Held a strand of my hair
          So strong
          All I could do
          Was keep believing
          Was that enough?
          Is anyone there?
          I wanna scream
          Is this a dream?
          How could this happen
          Happen to me?
          This isn't fair
          This nightmare
          This kind of torture
          I just can't bear
          I want you here
          I want you here
          Ooh... ooh...
          I waited so long
          For you to come
          Then you were here
          And now you're gone
          I was not prepared
          For you to leave me
          Oh this is misery
          Are you still there?
          I wanna scream
          Is this a dream?
          How could this happen
          Happen to me?
          This isn't fair
          This nightmare
          This kind of torture
          I just can't bear
          I want you here
          I want you here
          God help me
          God help me
          God help me
          Breathe!
          I wanna scream
          Is this a dream?
          How could this happen
          Happen to me?
          This isn't fair
          This nightmare
          This kind of torture
          I just can't bear
          I want you here
          I want you here
          I want you here
          I want you here
          An ache
          So deep
          That I
          Can hardly breathe

I keep posting music lyrics XD no one pays attention to them anyway but the lyrics post are how I feel. Not like anyone cares

When did I become so numb?
          When did I lose myself?
          All the words that leave my tongue
          Feel like they came from someone else
          I'm paralyzed
          Where are my feelings?
          I no longer feel things
          I know I should
          I'm paralyzed
          Where is the real me?
          I'm lost and it kills me inside
          I'm paralyzed
          When did I become so cold?
          When did I become ashamed? (oh)
          Where's the person that I know?
          They must have left
          They must have left
          With all my faith
          I'm paralyzed
          Where are my feelings?
          I no longer feel things
          I know I should
          I'm paralyzed
          Where is the real me?
          I'm lost and it kills me inside
          I'm paralyzed
          I'm paralyzed
          I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
          And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
          But it's still alive
          And it's taking over me where am I?
          I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
          But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
          I'm in the race of life and time passed by
          Look, I sit back and I watch it
          Hands in my pockets
          Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
          I just watch 'em
          I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
          I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
          I'm in a box
          But I'm the one who locked me in
          Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen
          I'm paralyzed
          Where are my feelings?
          I no longer feel things
          I know I should
          I'm paralyzed
          Where is the real me?
          I'm lost and it kills me inside
          I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed)
          Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
          I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
          I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah)
          I'm paralyzed
          Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?)
          I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
          I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)

I'm sorry that I did this, the blood is on my hands
          I stare at my reflection, I don't know who I am
          Practice my confession in case I take the stand
          I'll say I learned my lesson, I'll be a better man
          I'm packing up my things and I'm wiping down the walls
          I'm rinsing off my clothes and I'm walking through the halls
          I did it all for him, so I felt nothing at all
          I don't know what he'll say, so I'll ask him when he calls
          Would you love me more (would you love me more)
          If I killed someone for you?
          Would you hold my hands? (Would you hold my hands)
          They're the same ones that I used
          When I killed someone for you
          Would you turn me in (would you turn me in)
          When they say I'm on the loose?
          Would you hide me when (would you hide me when)
          My face is on the news?
          'Cause I killed someone for you, yeah
          I hear the sirens comin', I see the flashing lights
          I'm driving through the suburbs wearing my disguise
          I show up at his doorstep to look him in the eyes
          I tell him that it's me, but he doesn't recognize
          "Can't you see I'm running?" Said, "I need a place to hide"
          "I've gotta ask you something, could you please let me inside"
          "Just let me explain, no, I wouldn't tell you lies"
          "I know you'll understand if you let me stay the night"
          Would you love me more (would you love me more)
          If I killed someone for you?
          Would you hold my hands? (Would you hold my hands)
          They're the same ones that I used
          When I killed someone for you
          Would you turn me in (would you turn me in)
          When they say I'm on the loose?
          Would you hide me when (would you hide me when)
          My face is on the news?
          'Cause I killed someone for you, yeah
          You have to understand that the one I killed is me
          Changing what I was for what you wanted me to be
          

You've got me shaking from the way you're talking
          My heart is breaking but there's no use crying
          What a cyanide surprise you have left for my eyes
          If I had common sense I'd cut myself or curl up and die
          Sticks and stones could break my bones
          But anything you say will only fuel my lungs
          Don't mind us we're just spilling our guts
          If this is love I don't wanna be loved
          You pollute the room with a filthy tongue
          Watch me choke it down so I can throw it up.
          Don't mind us we're just spilling our guts
          If this is love I don't wanna be hanging by the neck
          Before an audience of death.
          You could be the corpse and I could be the killer
          If I could be the devil, you could be the sinner
          You could be the drugs and I could be the dealer
          Everything you say is like music to my ears
          You could be the corpse and I could be the killer
          If I could be the devil, you could be the sinner
          You could be the drugs and I could be the dealer
          Everything you say is like music to my, music to my ears
          Don't mind us we're just spilling our guts
          If this is love I don't wanna be loved
          You pollute the room with a filthy tongue
          Watch me choke it down so I can throw it up.
          Don't mind us we're just spilling our guts
          If this is love I don't wanna be hanging by the neck
          Before an audience of death
          (Before an audience)
          Failure find me
          To tie me up now
          

For so long now I've been coming to your rescue
          Got me thinking I'll get you
          And I'm serious when I say I'm over it
          I'm over it and your fuckin' lies
          That you'll stick around
          Stay on my side of town
          Now I'm covered in blood
          And I'm feeding off your pretty little lies
          For once why can't you just come and chase me
          Dig up my grave and save my body
          Now I'm rotting to the bone
          But my heart's still beatin'
          Hopin' you won't leave me
          Creepy boys
          You're just my style
          Blood-red lips
          You don't smile
          Falling victim to your fantasy
          Damn, I love it that you're so creepy
          Now you're risking it all
          For some creepy boy
          With a blacked-out rage that'll cast a spell
          Don't tempt him. He's got those evil eyes
          Now you're risking it all
          For some pin-up doll
          Who drinks in the AM
          Fucks in the PM
          Treats all the boys like he don't need 'em
          Creepy boys
          You're just my style
          Blood-red lips
          You don't smile
          Falling victim to your fantasy
          Damn, I love it that you're so creepy
          Creepy boys
          You're just my style
          Blood-red lips
          You don't smile
          Falling victim to your fantasy
          Damn, I love it that you're so creepy
          Creepy boys
          You're just my style
          Blood-red lips
          You don't smile
          Falling victim to your fantasy
          Damn, I love it that you're so creepy

You're the sound of a song and I can't get you out of my head
          You're the calm in the storm
          You're voice saying come back to bed
          Maybe I'm just too tired to keep running
          Maybe you're what I never saw coming
          Am I in your head, half as often as your on my mind?
          If I don't make sense, please forgive me I can't sleep at night
          At least not alone, not anymore
          Not since I found what I never went looking for, and
          Now you're in my head
          I must've lost my mind
          You're the scars on my skin
          You're the past I don't wanna erase
          You're the words on my lips that have left
          But I still seem to taste
          Maybe I'm just too tired to keep lying
          Maybe you're all I ever wanted
          Am I in your head, half as often as your on my mind?
          If I don't make sense, please forgive me I can't sleep at night
          At least not alone, not anymore
          Not since I found what I never went looking for, and
          Now you're in my head
          I must've lost my mind
          There's an empty space beside me
          And I'll keep it that way
          Until you're here
          I need you here
          There was another face beside me
          But I sent it away
          Cause you're not here
          Here
          Am I in your head, half as often as your on my mind?
          If I don't make sense, please forgive me I can't sleep at night
          At least not alone...

You must think that I'm stupid
          You must think that I'm a fool
          You must think that I'm new to this
          But I have seen this all before
          I'm never gonna let you close to me
          Even though you mean the most to me
          'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
          So I'm never gonna get too close to you
          Even when I mean the most to you
          In case you go and leave me in the dirt
          But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
          And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
          And every time you walk out, the less I love you
          Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true
          I'm way too good at goodbyes
          (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          I'm way too good at goodbyes
          (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          I know you're thinking I'm heartless
          I know you're thinking I'm cold
          I'm just protecting my innocence
          I'm just protecting my soul
          I'm never gonna let you close to me
          Even though you mean the most to me
          'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
          So I'm never gonna get too close to you
          Even when I mean the most to you
          In case you go and leave me in the dirt
          But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
          And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
          And every time you walk out, the less I love you
          Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true
          I'm way to good at goodbyes
          (I'm way to good at goodbyes)
          I'm way too good at goodbyes
          (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          No way that you'll see me cry
          (No way that you'll see me cry)
          I'm way too good at goodbyes
          (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          No
          No, no, no, no, no (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          No, no, no, no
          No, no, no (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          (No way that you'll see me cry)
          (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
          'Cause every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
          And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
          And every time you walk out, the less I love you
          Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true
          I'm way too good at goodbyes

Daydream
          Life feels like a daydream
          And I just wish that I could wake up
          I just wish that I could wake up
          My mind
          Whispers in the nighttime
          Voices always keeping me up
          Telling me that I should give up
          'Cause lately, I've been in the backseat to my own life
          Trying to take control, but I don't know how to
          I don't wanna be sad forever
          I don't wanna be sad no more
          I don't wanna wake up and wonder
          What the hell am I doing this for?
          I don't wanna be medicated
          I don't wanna go through that war
          I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
          I don't wanna be sad anymore
          I don't wanna be sad forever
          I don't wanna go one more day
          I just wanna wake up and realize
          Everything's gonna be okay
          I don't know how else to say it
          I don't wanna go through that war
          I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
          I don't wanna be sad anymore
          I'm callin' through to the other side
          I'll make it through to tomorrow
          'Cause that's all I can do today
          Do today
          'Cause lately, I've been in the backseat to my own life
          Trying to take control, but I don't know how to
          I don't wanna be sad forever
          I don't wanna be sad no more
          I don't wanna wake up and wonder
          What the hell am I doing this for?
          I don't wanna be medicated
          I don't wanna go through that war
          I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be sad
          I don't wanna be sad anymore
          I don't wanna be sad forever
          I don't wanna go one more day
          I just wanna wake up and realize