@Luchsinspain
Might post something this month, not 100% sure though, I kinda have no time to write and I take way too much time creating the entire universe of an AU down to the detail of a street before even being able to start the actual story, not to mention that I've basically completely stopped using Wattpad because of the tagging being such a nightmare to go through. (Aka looking at a character tag and getting 30 pages of x reader or oc insert.)
Hi there :)
Wondering if you're okay and if all is well.
Otherwise, hello, it's been a while.
:]
@Ayamamaoru Hi, yeah, I've been getting better actually, I'm hoping to find time and re-write my first ever fanfiction (Cursed Land) sometime soon because it went completely off the rails, as expected from my first fanfiction, and it just doesn't have the vibe I want it to have. I have a ton of unfinished works too, mainly mcyt and Vtuber related ranging from 500-2000 words, so at least I've been somewhat writing I guess. I hope it isn't too disappointing that I haven't updated my fanfics in roughly a year, a lot has been going on but like I said, it's been getting better :'D I hope you too have been doing alright :D
I promise I'm actually working on stuff and fighting through my writers block, I'm not going to stop writing. (Bro I've been dead on here for so long)
Hi, just wanted to drop by and say hello :)
You good?
Life been treating you okay?
So, we all know at this point huh? I'm not gonna go on a long rant because quite frankly I'm missing the words.
I will continue to write our beloved legend in my books because quite frankly I believe he deserves to be kept in good memory (Unless it will be stated by those close to him that they do not want this) For me books have always been a way to keep my memories alive and still spark joy even if (talking about a character who died in a show because I haven't been in a situation like this before) the person in the books will never be able to continue to write their own story.
To make it short. I would like to keep Techno in good memories for others by still writing his character into my books, though, I will refrain from writing him into a.. sad or unfortunate character because he really doesn't deserve that. So if I write his character I will make him a total bad@ss like the amazing person he was.
I will still take a break from writing for a while to process the whole thing. For the people that feel like they wouldn't be able to read fanfiction with his character in them, I apologize but the thought of keeping him in good memory through my fics makes me feel better.
(Once again, should someone close to him state to not write him or his character into fictions anymore I won't hesitate to stop doing so.)
On a last note. When I start writing again, all you can expect from me is extremely OP and bad@ss Techno because that's the way he deserves to be kept in our memories, as the amazing OP, bad@ss, amazing friend and dedicated person he was.
@Luchsinspain I get it, recently I have had a SBI story in my drafts but I finished writing chapter one on his passing day. I'm not sure whether or not to publish it because I personally still haven't gotten over it.
@Ayamamaoru Could've been worse, I'm an apathetic f*ck sadly, I was actually surprised that I actually cried, I just kinda have to keep reminding myself that this is real, probably a side effect of assuming your friend dead for 6 months because last time you heard from them was saying good bye, so yeah I have to keep stopping that part of me that's constantly whispering "Oh but what if it's fake?" Paranoia on another level Ig. So yeah, I feel bad for not being a crying mess which is stupid. I have this stupid thing where I get the urge to smile at bad news, like when the cats I grew up with died, when my grandmothers friend died, when we assumed our friend was dead and when my partner tried to yk, the fact that I don't smile when thinking about it is actually a really big positive for me. I always struggle with like bad things happening because I don't feel sad I just constantly feel sick to the stomach or think how disgusting it is of me to smile when talking about terrible things. So yeah, considering I'm usually smiling when thinking of sad stuff or talking about it, I'm faring quite well seeing as I have no such urge this time :') I don't really know if I know what grief feels like to be honest, usually I just move on with my life immediately and feel bad for feeling nothing but this time I actually felt something, like the constant nausea, it was honestly surprising to me when yesterday I couldn't bring myself to read any of the fics I wanted to read before the news broke, that was a first. But today I can read them again without the nausea spiking so... yeah I still have the slight nausea but I'm already moving on and I hate it. :') And yeah, I like all of SBI a lot and just recently I've been getting more comfortable with the idea of making more content of my favorites (Emerald duo and Syndicate) Because I always try to include everyone even if I'd rather not sometimes, so now I don't know if I'll still be comfortable with writing more Emerald duo.. :')
@Luchsinspain It's true, he deserves to be viewed as such. A legend. I was actually going to ask if you're alright, you seemed to like all the members of the SBi and his passing must have been hard. It may still be. So, are you alright?
Fuck.
So long nerds...
Okay maybe writing 2 10k word chapters a day isn't very healthy unless my entire life has been a lie and I don't actually need sleep or free time lmao, so, sadly I have to extend the dead line by one more week meaning that I'll try having all the chapters done in two weeks on monday, if I get them done earlier I'll be posting then.
Ahaha guess who's writing a 10 chapter story about emerald duo? Maybe a bit of SBI but mostly emerald duo because I've decided to say f*ck it and actually go with my favoritism. Though, hopefully I'll upload the first or first two chapter(s) next week monday, that's mainly the plan but I'll only actually start posting once I've finished writing all 10 chapters. So let's hope I've finished writing all 10 chapters by monday! 'Cause I want to upload either 1 or 2 chapter per day that week so I'm kinda just going with how my patience lets me :')
So a little info about what the book is about lol
Basically a Backrooms AU where Phil no-clips into level 206 and feels like f*cking dying, but ah-ah-ah our extremely bored Mr.Technoblade resists the masculine urge to psychologically torture the puny mortal, 'kay that's a lie, he does mess with him a bit lol
Or
Entitynoblade and Puny mortal Phil backrooms brainrot I've been having for about a month now.
or or
Techno keeps away all the Smilers while Phil just feels like dying for the first half of the book. Pog.
Maybe he'll visit The Mobile Society of Light and The Sanctum of Light at one point, really depends on if I want to make the rest of the Syndicate Benchtrio and SBI light worshipers or not.
I mean if they'll go to The Sanctum of Light they'd actually get some, no the only natural light on the whole level apart from the Light orbs and Lighters so I'm honestly torn.
Can you see if done my research? Lmao
The book will follow mostly the same dynamics as the canon Backrooms but it will have a few fanon elements 'cause I need my emerald duo content and there isn't THAT much info about Rattlers and Frowners have been obliterated from the Wiki :c
Oh well, I'll be back to writing now!
Someone please come pick up the author aka me, I'm currently in the process of a Vampire AU One-Shot, HELP I STILL NEED TO DO MORE WORLD BUILDING AND INTRODUCTION AND DEVELOPMENT BUT IT'S ALREADY MORE THAN 2K WORDS AGH THE AGONY
Thanks, Imma go back to writing now, had to stop yesterday because I fell asleep for 0.2 seconds and hit my head on the keyboard.
Hi :)
Just wanted to ask if you're alright.
And say hai.
Hai :D
@Luchsinspain *L'GASP* Your partner is visiting?! That's exciting :D as I've said before, take your time with writing! It's good to hear that you're alright, I'm alright too, I do have a test on Monday though, EQAO sucks. I've finally been studying though! I think it'll be alright. I hope you have a nice time with your partner :D