milfaari
How are you doing luv???
Ludweanne
milfaari
Anna!!!
milfaari
I missed you alot
milfaari
@Ludweanne I understand you sis. Same thing with me. My vacations have newly started and I hope to do the same
Ludweanne
@GoldesttMaknae Thanks ^w^ I'm good as well, truly relieved I have finished my exams and so my university year. I hope I'll find inspiration to write again, and I'm to have time to relax, because that's why I need the most. I feel so lost all the time, as if I'm alone in a different time and space, like I don't belong anywhere and like I'm always out of time, idk how to explain it... I just want to find my time, where I can be a grown person and learn languages and stuff, or a little child and draw or color... I don't know how to explain it well, but yeah...
milfaari
@Ludweanne heyy! Omg I missed you soooo much. I hope you're feeling better now. You can always slide into my dms. Take care honey, I'm going good, wbu??
milfaari
How have you been?
milfaari
Heyy
Ludweanne
Hey Someone~
I hope you had a great holiday, a joyful Christmas if you celebrate it, and hopeful first days of 2021. I wish you all the happiness, success, and health, for this year as well.
The second semester of the year is beginning today, so I'll still be very busy, but I'll try to post one or two chapters more for my book?
I don't know, honestly, I just would like to finish it to reupload it and write all my other ideas. It's not that I don't like writing this book, but I'm very busy, and I know some people have it in their library (I'm so thankful for this, thank you a lot), so I have this kind of pressure. I have this pressure because there aren't many people who read it, I'm not a popular writer, and so I feel like I should work more and better than anyone, to eventually become ""known"". But I'm busy with my studies, and inspiration doesn't come as easily as I would like, and being busy means my mind is busy as well so it's difficult to free my mind and let the imaginary enter, you know... I don't know if I'm being clear...
Anyway, I published a new chapter, if anyone noticed it. The drama is coming back, because it wouldn't be funny if everything was all lovey-dovey, would it be?
I hope Someone will read this, but I most importantly wish my book will be read and appreciated. I think that may be a wish I have for 2021... for my writing to be enjoyed...
Anyway, see you someday, dear Someone!
Take good care of yourself~
Ludweanne
@GoldesttMaknae I'm happy to read that! Vacations are meant to be relaxing ^^ Thank you for these compliments, I'll do my best to ameliorate my writing and become better :)
milfaari
Aah I'm late but merry Christmas ♥️
Ludweanne
@GoldesttMaknae Oh, I'm late to answer, but thanks! I hope you had a very joyful Christmas as well! <3
milfaari
Haiyee
Ludweanne
@GoldesttMaknae Don't give up! Keep hoping and doing your best! Oh, thanks >< I didn't expect such compliments! I hope I'll have time to write sooner than later, but I have absolutely no idea when will I have time to breathe and have enough time to write. I'll try to come back soon, to finish my book, and then make some little trailers of other books, writing them behind, maybe see which one is more wished before choosing the one I would focus on until its end... We'll see :)
milfaari
@Ludweanne I hope so...its true. To distract myself, I come here and read some books. Gotta say noona, your writing is so amazing. I really miss, I hope you write in the near future. Even of the smuts you wrote, the grammar and vocab is so damn good I often myself reading new words there.
Ludweanne
Hey Someone~
I hope you're doing well. It's been a while since I "officially" posted. First, I'm sorry I didn't post any chapter for my Bday.
I wanted to be clear with you. I know I don't even have 30 followers, and I perfectly know that all of you don't read my books, and that's okay. In that case, what I'm about to say will surely not bother you.
For the others, I'll also announce it in my book (for those who don't follow me but read my book), but here we are:
I'm officially on hiatus, and I don't know for how long.
It sadly won't be very different from the past weeks/months, as I have struggles in writing. I have a lot of ideas for new books, but I would like to properly finish this one before beginning anything else (except for requests, if only I had some).
The problem is that I'm very busy because of my studies. The lockdown isn't making anything easier as I thought it would, and I'm honestly struggling a little.
I adore writing, it's something that I would like to do all day because daydreaming is my best way to escape from reality when I'm too tired and things go wrong. But unfortunately, I don't have time, and the pressure, stress, and work are overwhelming me, and tiring me.
I always try to be positive, but these past days, tiredness and studies seriously start to weigh on me, and I feel like I'm drowning in my own Shadow...
So I'm officially taking a break; so I can come back with many ideas, many chapters of quality, then more books; so I will be able to share more positivity and dream, and be a real pillar anybody can lean on.
These days I just feel like a weak crybaby girl, despite being unable to let the tears fall as she never has time to even think about this need. I just feel like I would lean on anybody and follow like a lost puppy anyone who would give me a little affection. I know I'm in lack of affection, but I don't want to become a clingy puppy when others just want a good friend to talk to and laugh with.
Ludweanne
Anyway. I'll work like a crazy jurist robot, I'll do my best and I hope will succeed, and then, I'll be back. I hope I'll have time to write a little during Xmas break, but with the exams coming I'm absolutely not sure... Maybe will I be back with the next chapters and new books in May/June? Let's pray I would pass my semesters and wouldn't need to study again until July...
To have great fun in writing and be fully relax, I need this hiatus. I think and hope it's for the best... okay...
Thank you Someone, I hope I'll talk to you again with a big smile on my face, victory in my heart, and stories in my head, so I can share them with you!
Take care, I hope you're reading this with a peaceful mind.
Ludweanne
@alpacascuteee123 Thank you for not giving up on me and trying your best to help me despite my dejected self. Your words are helping me a lot, I could never thank you enough. I'll try to get over all of this, I'll work harder and have a better spirit. I guess I just need someone who cares and tells me honest comforting words. I have a diary and it's very helping, but it's true that sometimes I'm just demotivated, moping, and drowning in the negative thoughts. I'll get over this. I have to get over this. I'll work harder and more efficiently. Maybe I won't come here every day (these past days I'm just coming to see my notifications, and see if you wrote me something), Idk... I'll see. I'm sorry you're babysitting me despite I'm older, I'll try to be stronger and more independent, so you can really feel like you can lean on me and open up to me if you want and/or need. I love you, and I'm forever thankful to you, never forget that. Don't worry about me too much, I'll keep your words and hugs in my mind and heart, Take care of yourself as well my dear one <3