Ruined-Emerald16

A warning for anyone who is planning on going and touring all over Washington DC, if you are not using a vehicle and are walking please prepare yourself and your bodies for walking MILES upon MILES a day... Me and my group were even taking the Metro and the average amount of steps for us was at least 30,000 at some point throughout the day... We even used a ton of escalators and still had that many steps... Also bring A LOT of money! Especially if you have a spending habit, I had $200 and am down to about 16... And that isn't including the like $10 I had to have a chaperone pay bc I didn't have card and only cash and then also I had a couple other things bought for me... PREPARE WELL AHEAD OF TIME.

So second day in DC and I have pretty much no money, maybe like 10 dollars T^T and imma be here for like 2 or 3 more days with nothing... If anyone can help me out I have cash app T^T EmeraldFlower16 is my tag, I'm not expecting anything but it would be appreciated 

Promising myself to be active more (sadly might not happen T.T) but I'm currently on a train to DC! Excited to see all of the monuments and stuff! Gonna spend about 4 days in DC! But when I get back the same day I have to go to a wake thing where we celebrate the life my Gramma who died of cancer lived... But then I have a birthday party 2 days later and I'm possibly going to meet up and hang out with one of my moms best friends sons

Sorry I was not active for the past like 2 weeks... Lemme update ya'll a bit! So last Tues (13th) was my birthday! I am now 17! I met somebody online who seems really cool and we are both understanding of each others and our personal lives and yesterday he asked me to be his gf and he hasn't been like all the others so far bc he only talks about genuine stuff and has never brought up bodies or like that topic of sexual things and we have actual good conversations (My girls even approve of him lol) but tomorrow is my last day of school and by Odins hand I've gotten pretty stressed over my classes and where as I'm excited to be out of school there is a small part of me that doesn't want this school years memories to stop... Also I may lose followers with this comment but I have realized not many people have learned that I am a witch, I am descended from druids and Norse pagan, one of my main bloodlines are Norse and Scandinavian... I also have a lot of Native American and Irish in my bloodline so hopefully that doesn't bother you guys!

The way I was in pain yesterday for standing for about 5 hours in my kitchen making brownie cake pops for the very first time on Monday then having to stand for an hour yesterday wrapping them and putting into a box to bring to my concert and after I wrapped them I had to get ready in a little less than a half hour and then dance for about 10 minutes before standing and changing and only sitting for like 10 minutes before standing for around 30 minutes singing... and all while wearing heels at my concert... I was in so much pain and by the end of the concert I had a headache and when I got home I was slowly hurting more and more, woke up late this morning and didn't go to school all while running on 1 pop tart and about 6/7 cookies in like 28-30 hours... and 1 small apple juice juice box and very very little water... I'm about to have something for supper I think... i mean the food thing if I don't go to school I'll tend to do to myself but oh well, the pain is my problem, OH AND I had a feeling yesterday that I was gonna start soon and just started like a few hours ago so that's fun as well, at least the cake pops I made were good, or at least I think a lot of people liked them, I know for sure like 2 of my friends, and my mom, liked them, one of my friends told me I HAD to make more lol... Anyways sorry for this long rant

Just f*ck life at this point! I quit! I'm gonna focus on trying to better myself bc I KEEP messing up the way i just did and I wouldn't be surprised if my dad gave up on me, I deserve it, what is the point of life? That is a really good question that I used to think I had the answer for but i guess no I don't, I just hope I don't give up, earlier I really felt the urge to give up, just couldn't bc I couldn't leave my siblings completely by themselves... I need to heal but I don't know how, I thought I was getting help but he didn't care, he just wanted something from me like the rest...

It's been a while since I've updated you guys but 3 days ago was my 1 month with my man, I don't think I've been treated this amazingly with any of my ex's and I'm currently working on a HTTYD fanfic so who is excited to see it?

So it has been little over a week since I broke up with my ex and I am talking to the sweetest guy I've met and I also am currently in In School Suspension... For the 2nd time this week and 3rd time in the past 2 weeks... I have been here more the past month then in my entire 10 years of school... Almost broke down crying a few times in the hallway as well as in my school cafeteria and I HATE crying in school, the past 2 years I've only cried in school maybe 3 times overall, after I went into homeschooling during COVID I have despised letting myself cry in school, bc in 5th grade I cried almost everyday bc almost my entire class liked to bully me and me crying made it worst so... How are your guys days going?

Afternoon 

Sorry I haven't updated in a moment, I had a really fun weekend figuring out my plans with my bf and I just broke up with him an hour and a half ago...