I’m becoming a minecraft YouTuber out of spite of people’s expectations of me and for my future f@ck social interactions and the algorithm of societal norms today is the day I decide to be unemployed forever
I think I need to distance my self from my friends I need to stop giveing them chances to be assholes to me I hate the way they talk to me especially when I mention my dumb shower thought theories. I genuinely make me dislike them and then I feel bad and hate myself for being dramatic I’ve had the stupid problem where I doubt them and I’m paranoid that they hate me. Cause I know I’m annoying because Im always try to get approval from other and validation. I’m probably toxic myself for not talking with them and I keep trying to distance myself and failing. Now my other friends are slowly getting on my nerves. And I don’t wanna be mad at anyone I don’t want to be mean or annoying. I’m sorry to rant but I really needed to vent and I can’t vent my homie rn