LylaaCera

Me:*trying so hard no to kill myself
          	Also me:*unconsciously bringing kitchen knife to my room for the third time

RealTakemichi

@LylaaCera Let's TALK.
          	  (Calm but angry because your friend doesn't realize how much she means to you)
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LylaaCera

@leon828 I'm in boarding school but this time I got to bring my phone along (yes we can't have smartphone for like months) I'm venting my day in wattpad •́  ‿ ,•̀
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leon828

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@LylaaCera no no its okay girl i have sciences final test and i still didnt study i think we all are fucked up
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LylaaCera

Me:*trying so hard no to kill myself
          Also me:*unconsciously bringing kitchen knife to my room for the third time

RealTakemichi

@LylaaCera Let's TALK.
            (Calm but angry because your friend doesn't realize how much she means to you)
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LylaaCera

@leon828 I'm in boarding school but this time I got to bring my phone along (yes we can't have smartphone for like months) I'm venting my day in wattpad •́  ‿ ,•̀
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leon828

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@LylaaCera no no its okay girl i have sciences final test and i still didnt study i think we all are fucked up
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LylaaCera

Wait wattpad has audio now????!??!?!!!!! WHY I JUST FOUND OUT!?!?!?? LIKE THEY LEGIT READ THE STORY I THOUGHT THE WRITER JUST PUT IT FOR FUN BUT I TRIED IT ON OTHER BOOKS AND IT HAVE THE SAME READER LIKE THIS APP CAN BE CONSIDERED AS AUDIO BOOKS APP RIGHT?!??!

LylaaCera

Update about yesterday issues:
          
          It got worst. I can't sleep at all until I found her hoodie and I sleep with the hoodie. And I wake up crying for no reason at all. This doesn't show any sign to stop soon.. 

LylaaCera

@IAmTheKeeper plisss..... We're in the same continent but not country...(。ŏ﹏ŏ)
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LylaaCera

@IAmTheKeeper we probably live in different country ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ but I'll look forward to it hahahaha... I just escape reality by maladaptive daydreaming... If I have a place to run to, I'll probably run long time ago..
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LylaaCera

To be honest... I want to reach out for help. I've been slitting my wrist this month... But I'm afraid to tell my family cuz the last time I did that they ask me to stop spouting nonsense. So I went for online therapy and yes. Halfway through the process my family found out and they literally ask me to stop. I just want a help they don't give me. Is it that hard..

leon828

@LylaaCera oh hunny cry its okay to cry dont keep it in your heart also dont thank we all are like brothers also about your sis go to her and tell her to stop joking about it that's not something you joke about rey atleast you dont need to do it
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LylaaCera

@leon828 pliss you're gonna make me cry again and really... I appreciate y'all. Thank you and I actually 4 months clean but oldest sis (not that one I miss) triggered it back by joking about scars to her friend... Kinda hurt tbh when your siblings joke about it
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leon828

@LylaaCera sorry for ya i know all of this is hard to you bur try stopping cutting it will not help and your family are a bunch of fuckers dont listen to them and if you need someone to talk to im here im not your big brother for no reason 
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LylaaCera

Can anyone tell me why am I crying whenever my sister left for her college. Like I'm old enough to not cry but am I an overthinker cuz everytime I be in her room (we share the room lol) I'll be crying like she'll never return but I never cry like that when my mum left me for years. But my sister just leaving for a month.. is this some sort of attachment issues or something?

LylaaCera

@cryokym_31 omg your words make me cry back in a good way tho thanks y'all. At least I know what am I doing rn
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Ishigami_Yoru

@LylaaCera hahahaha.... I'm like that whenever my grandma or one of my aunty that I'm so close with go back in our hometown I felt lonely without them here in the city
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tearyalann

@ LylaaCera  Awwe, its okay to cry when someone left, i know how it feels, i know how empty the house feel when they left, so it is normal, you don't need to be weird out about your feelings, i myself don't really think that its an attachment issues or something, its just that you love her really! So it is not a big problem, loving someone and not wanting someone to leave are normal! Just so you know your sister must be so happy and gratefull because of how bug your love is!
            
            Just let the times flow, you will get the hang of it! Just remember that you are a very independent and strong person! And there's still a lot of people out there who loves you! Love you, Lyla, stay strong and healthy! 
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LylaaCera

I just publish a book about my random things I scribbled. It's basically just some scene from fanfic that I need 2D version. That's all. And it's ugly btw. Next chapter is gonna be about takemichi taking the stab instead of baji. Found that scene in tr fanfic. The fanfic belongs to someone else. How do you tag?

LylaaCera

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I legit wants some online friends to do stupid shit or trends together like bitch??? I'm fucking lonely and I don't wanna go out socializing
          ಠ∀ಠ Like damn༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

leon828

@LylaaCera np hunny always here for ya
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LylaaCera

@leon828 somehow I'm taking your advice rn big bro thx ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ
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LylaaCera

I'll be deleting my previous work. My mum ask me to do that since my class is failing like her marriage so thanks to whoever voted before and sorry to disappoint you guys  that's the reason I was born anyways

leon828

@LylaaCera
            oh my gosh girl dont say that 
            also ita okay we won't get disappointed i love you girl we love you and im thanking your mother for giving birth for such a cute sweet lovely nice girl like you
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imajustsimp

@LylaaCera I mean it's okay that you deleted it because you have reasons but that does not mean you are a disappointment
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LylaaCera

Y all know... We got our result for this semester today... And I was asleep until just now... I woke up to see a message from my dad saying "you got number 30 over 121. Make sure to try harder." I got a good pointer and will receive a certificate so I hope my dad knows that. But instead, he pointed out the flaw... Idk what I should feel rn... I'm trying my best but ended up still not enough..

LylaaCera

@IAmTheKeeper yea.... Why can't they be satisfied sometimes... At least I'm not like other teens my age showing their pussy to guys...
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RealTakemichi

@LylaaCera WE SORTA HAVE SIMILAR PROBLEMS, I GUESS, I AM FROM INDIA AND HERE RANK DOESN'T MATTER, PERCENTAGE DOES AND MY MOTHER ISN'T HAPPY WITH ME GETTING 95%, LIKE I AM NOT A GENIOUS, I CAN'T GET 100%
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LylaaCera

@NoFilterHoe thx tho...✌️
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