Lyn the Dragon slayer

Hi

Ima try and to be fully back next weekend so I'll see you guys later

Ik it's early but still he's usually texting me now neither of my friends are responding so now im tempted to do a dirty Halloween trick I love to do even though it's past Halloween its still fun idk should I do it? 

Thanks to my mom since I was a little girl me and her always watch like gone with the wind north and south scarlet stuff like that and I always wanted to go to a mask ball since I never been to one I had the chance in 8th grade but it got out voted by neon so that's what I kinda plan for my sweet 16 maybe idk most things end up as a disappointment 

Sorry for all my readers I might not write anymore for right now I wanna finish surviving the blizzard and my oneshots but I'm. Not right in the head rn I'm trying not to shut down again 
          
          
          I just gotta reput all my emotions back into the bottle so idk when I'll start publishing chapters but once I get myself together again I'll try and write again I'm sorry for being a disappointment to anyone 
          
          
          I know some people think that my father made that clear that I'm a disappointment so don't even start with that bull with me idk how long Im going to be off on here I'll still take suggestion but just not going to write... 

Idk why the heck I'm so tired idk if it was because how much I cried yesterday or I'm just plain tired I wanna go back to sleep but I can't 

CRAP I'm bleeding again like alot shit

Do I have the right to beat myself up. Like not physically mentally cause apparently I've been doing that since he left for good

Now that I've woken up a few minutes ago I can't go back to sleep now what

*screeches* WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME 
          
          
          
          
          I really don't know what's wrong with me 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Idk if it was my soda or the manga page I saw on google but now im shaking like mad you can see more of my Iris then my pupils my face is turning red and I wanna scream