LynnLovesHobi

I miss you 

Happy new year everyone, may 2023 be on our side♡

I'm alive, i started antidepressants and the side effects are kicking my ass, i sent the chapter to my beta reader and I'll post it as soon as they answer me back<3 love u all

Soooooooo.. should i cross post the BTS story I've been posting everywhere but here? *Heavy thinking*

I'm not gonna lie, i was afraid of pressing that publish button after so long, I re-read the chapter dozen of times before actually doing it. I was worried it would not be good enough after over seven months of putting the story on hiatus, i was afraid of me not being good enough, but i did it. I promised to myself that i would finish this story, no matter what, and im gonna do it. 
          Coming back to this app in the first place it's a lot for me so you can imagine how important this is for me..
          
          it's not even that i think that my writing is bad, i actually think i improved a lot and that's why i will have to edit all the past chapters to match it with the last one, but truly opening this app hurt like a motherfucker in the beginning,, so im sorry for being away for so long..
          
          anyways i will unhiatus the story even though updates will come in very slow, and it's mainly because on tumblr and ao3 i have another ongoing story- on slow updates as well- so i can concentrate on delivering good content for both, along with preparing one-shots like I've been doing for a while.. this being said, i hope you are ready for the ride, cause there's another 15-20 chapters missing from the end of the story and they are a lot 
          
          love you lots my loves

not me having a burst of inspiration and stopping everything I'm doing- which was editing the chapter anyway- to add it to the plot further on..
          
          also yes, I'm posting later, hopefully before morning

anyways i dont wanna say that i changed the ending of the story and I have to rewrite it, but I did and I'm not psychologically ready to see the reactions :DDD bear with me nd good luck my loves

There's actually a reason why i went on a hiatus in April.. my friendship with two people I rlly cared abt went downhill a few days before the last update, and since I met them through here, I couldn't find myself to open this app without crying.. sadly I've been having abandonment issues for over a decade now, so I should have figured it out quicker, but I guess I'm a fan of ignoring my feelings until they backfire.. i even didn't finish reading my favourite story bc of this knowing well that reading it meant finding these people in the comments and I would have cried like a bitch just at the thought.. hopefully now I'm strong enough to finish all these unfinished stuff, including finishing that book that I've been waiting so long for.. this being said, I really needed to let this out since Im not a fan of talking abt my problems, but I'm back and I'm glad

As an apology for the long ass hiatus the chapter will be longer than usual.. around 3-4k words i wanna say.. I'm working rlly hard to pull it out by Monday- if i can get over this sentence that's been plaguing me for the past 4 hours:) 

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