I don't know to be honest, im just me... 
I enjoy art, music and writing, im an introvert and can easily be influenced by large groups of hyper/ trouble making kids, peer pressure I presume. Im normally very quiet and tend to stick to myself in the back of the class, *although most people wouldn't think so*  I lead a very quiet life, not peaceful in the least bit but what can you do? I am under depression and I got over cutting, suicide thoughts are a normal thing for me and sleeping is the hardest thing ever accomplished. So I tend to fall asleep a lot during the day. Im not a pessimist and im not an optimist, most of the time I would rather be alone rather than surrounded by people.  I never believed in happy endings because anything that has ever happened- even with the slightest bit of joy it would turn sour and dangerous. People say I have experienced to much and say I need to start acting like a kid (Who ever would've thought?) but no matter what I can't seem to act...well kid-ish. Its to hard and I find it annoying/ a waste of time. Im pretty much a nerd...well a nerd who attends school dressed in a suit/dress. I tend to prefer things classical. I like wings..a lot actually, same goes for the night time and the coldness of winter. Anything hot or warm and sunny I tend to avert, it annoys me and makes me feel paranoid. But the cold and the searing pain of it provides comfort for me~ it so beautiful, just like the nighttime and all the stars aligning perfectly. Cooking is enjoyable, and im more of a outdoors type of person, A quick warning in person im pretty cold and will most likely ignore you with a straight face, I don't enjoy emotion and do what ever to avoid it, I don't like people at all I find the majority of you stupid and cruel.
Im a bit stubborn when it comes to actually admitting my feelings and I personally think im not worth the spit on the ground- because a freak like me doesn't deserve good things.