CLEARING THINGS UP (im sorry):
lately i havent been feeling well both mentally and physically so i kinda took a long long break from all kinds of social media platforms. ive realised one thing about myself during that time which is that i get so easily attached to people that its crazy. and the thing is that lately its been getting harder for me to talk to people,not only to people who arent close to me but also to people who i love and cherish (like family and friends). this has led me to answer to texts and calls less or sometimes even not at all,to not visit social platforms out of guilt and just float mindlessly and full of guilt in the present and less online. and ive been wondering,how or why would i do such things to the people i love more than anything? i cant deny that the fear of getting way too attached hasnt been there all my life following me around like a shadow. its been living inside me and for me it feels like im either insanely attached or (more like when i realise that im getting way attached) completely shut down. and im really not the type to make excuses but i really hope this reaches the right people (if anyone even cares idk). and to the people ive ignored or let down i am completely sorry. i just had to clear a few things up.
