I hate being so fucking stupid and gross and girly I'm so tired I wanna be a pretty boy that gets into fights and punches his walls and his nose isn't too big and his face isn't too uneven and his body isn't so wrong and feminine and his voice is calm and cold and he doesn't have to explain every time he's upset and he's already diagnosed with whatever the fuck is wrong with him and he's not babied by everyone and nobody expects him to wear cute clothes just because of his shape and he works out and he's a boy he's a boy I'm a boy I don't look like a boy let me be a boy I wish I didn't have to prove that I was a boy I don't want to keep going