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I just wanna say that things are just shit. I dont even have a good face, body, hair or a nice attitude. I stopped going to college and stopped going outside and no one bothered to care but when they had problems they always talk to me about it they made me absorb their pain and now that I have it it's like I cant have my own problem at all. It's like you dont deserve anything. Everything about me is just bad. And then when I try to make something better, when I try to stand up fate strikes and brings me down again. It's like even fate is my enemy. It's like, are these signs telling me to give the fuck up now because there's never going to be a salvation for me? But i dont wanna die. I WANNA LIVE! BUT THIS ISNT LIVING AT ALL