Gonna write a little rant about my frustrations over something having to do with my ex because I posted a lot on here about them back when we were together (2020-2021) if you remember any of that i am sorry
possible tw because for some people this may make them think of a stalking situation? lol
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basically last year, I did track and field for my highschool team, I got hurt by overtraining with long jump at the end of the season, and have been having trouble with my knees ever since
Back in february, I started physical therapy for them. I went to a place in the next town over twice a week for six weeks
Well, there was this girl. (my ex is/was trans ftm) She looked just like my ex. Reminded me of them in every way. We never REALLY talked but it made me dread going to those appointments because it was just so perplexing, it was terrifying.
I had a problem with my current boyfriend and group of school friends because everyone initially tried assuring me it was just a coincidence. But I couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong.
This person's physical therapist referred to them using she/her pronouns, and i cannot imagine the feeling that went through me when I heard them say my ex's deadname. I almost had a panic attack. I was in the corner doing the exercises my therapist told me to do, everything was shaky, I couldn't think straight and I honestly couldn't breathe.
I went to my next appointment prepared to confront the person, but for my last two appointments I didn't see them.
In January, my ex contacted me over discord for a bunch of dumb stuff and we talked a little before going our separate ways. I've tried to add them back three times since then and they haven't accepted it. So I'm gonna be stuck with so many unanswered questions until I can mentally move past it, and that is something I'll never forgive them or whoever their doppleganger is for.
If somehow they're reading this, I hope they get out of my head.
Any suggestions?
