hello, lucille. the amazingly glorious jude (also known as saint jude) here and i just wanted to stop by to let you know that eventho you most likely look like a donkey, i'll still have your back, because we love and we lose people and not everyone will always leave. i'm just here to remind you that even through death, no one truly leaves. memories stay forever, while our flesh rots. and even if we don't talk very much anymore, i'll always be there, stalking, making sure you're doing the best you can, trying to help out where i can because i'm amazing like that. and, donkeyface, just remember that one day, when all the petals wither, all that's left is the stem. you are the stem. you should take care of yourself, because in the end, it often seems as though we are the only ones who stay, mostly because we have no choice. but, just know, that even when the petals have withered and the stem is left behind, other wildflowers will be there to help you bloom, to help you grow in the right direction, even if the time they spend with you is short. treasure your memories, because in the end, that's the only thing you have that lasts forever. and treasure yourself, because you're the only one who stays in the end. and one day, even after we stop talking, keep my advice in mind. you might mourn, but there are so many here that have your back and will support you regardless of what may happen in the future and even if 2019 is the shittiest year to come, just know that you have your people to fall back on.
also, don't delete this paragraph, because i hate writing paragraphs for people because it's too much effort, but i deem you worthy of the effort. wow, that's actually the first compliment i've given you. don't expect anything after this, okay. i'm probably going to dissappear into thin air for now.
