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hello!! hope you are doing well fancat bean <3

Belated Happy birthday Mayesha!
          
          I'm sorry that I'm late. Or maybe sorry bcz I may haven't wished you in the past two years.
          I feel like, the one, wishing on birthdays should be a person's closest one. So I tend to delay birthday wishes; from...I don't know when xD.
          
          Imagine having a boundless book of destiny, its pages etched with secrets and wonders, illuminated by the shimmering light of distant kingdoms. Each chapter, a fragment of time, unfolds like a delicate dance of fate, guiding us through the labyrinth of life. And within this grand opus, you, are the protagonist, the one chosen to traverse its magnificent passages.
          
          Now just by imagining this let your life flow. I feel like you are going through a hard time. Let Allah decide all. Know, there will be chapters that leave you weeping, tears cleansing the soul. But these are only for your own growth. 
          
          May Allah fulfil all your wishes and may your dreams come true✿  

On another note, Silken is such a pretty last name I'm stealing it u.u 

I am, once again, back in my I hate food era and it is exhausting to be captured into this charade of mine again,, it shouldn't be the words of a person on their day of birth but then again I don't seem get to choose them. Not that anyone should be having these thoughts in the first place.
          
          I can't seem to forget long enough not to remember. You'd think with a memory like mine, I'd forget it already but nope, can't have easy things.
          
          I wonder if it's in the blood or is it a concoction I brewed on my own? Because if it isnt the latter, I wish they'd never met, they both have someone who's way too much like me. Just two sides of a coin, one who improved and one who clung onto her faith so bad that she never made any progress.
          
          And then the grandmother asks, where does this (my issue) come from? You've lived with people with personal failings like this all your life, why is it unbearable when it's me? Did you think it won't get passed down or something 
          They all ask the same as if I don't wish I was completely and perfectly normal about food.
          
          
          

Hi to anyone to reads it but I'm hoping no one does and we've all found someplace better <3
          
          I still post rants somewhere on the net, I still find wonderful things about me even tho the way I say them don't share this sentiment, and yeah, I still look at myself like an object on a petri dish (yk the whole alienise yourself and over-analyse thing), I still suck at most things but I assume most people aren't experts in most things and even rarely in one thing but most importantly, I'm doing much better now. Just like I've said a year or two ago.
          
          I hope the same goes for you 
          
          Also I'm not leaving, not with this many stuff I haven't finished reading (writing this made me miss the draft feature on tumblr so bad, its so easy to get used to things) ig it sounds like a goodbye note even tho it's an update bcs none of us are going to be here much (good for all of us really) 

hope you're doing well (dunno if you'll ever use this again but ;-; im glad i got to talk to you, thank you for existing)

Hey, do you know anyone named Acetic Acid?

your daily reminder that people only hate margot robbie because she broke barbie stereotypes 

I can't believe I gave my biology exm already. I remember my panick (I haven't read bio first ppr for a longg time period, like a year long of absence and quite not a year long all at once). I remember reading bio the day before bio exm and enjoying myself (haven't in a while). I remember giving the exm! Still carrying sm disbelief bcs that one is over?!? Bro how do you get over this. Actually trapped in the month before </3

The best job I had was moving a stone
          from one side of the road to the other.
          This required a permit which required
          a bribe. The bribe took all my salary.
          Yet because I hadn’t finished the job
          I had no salary, and to pay the bribe
          I took a job moving the stone
          the other way. Because the official
          wanted his bribe, he gave me a permit
          for the second job. When I pointed out
          that the work would be best completed
          if I did nothing, he complimented   
          my brain and wrote a letter
          to my employer suggesting promotion