I’m finally back from my trip: Kolkata, Andhra & Hyderabad, and I think I owe you guys a little explanation for why tf I’ve been so MIA with my stories.
The past few months have been a complete mess mentally. It started with a situationship I had with S, which ended around July 2025. I got genuinely attached to him, and even though it was never a proper relationship, it took me a long time to get over it. Then he texted me again in November like nothing had happened, and it reopened a lot of things I thought I had moved past.
Around December, I met B through a game. We clicked, became close, and after Christmas he proposed to me. I said yes while I was still trying to move on from S, and honestly, I think I was desperate for a distraction and wanted my spark back. For a while, it worked.
But almost a year later, I’ve realized something I’ve been avoiding. B and I both came into this relationship with baggage, and I don’t actually see him in my future. He’s serious about settling down within the next few years, while I’m 21 and only just starting to figure out my own life. He hasn’t necessarily done anything horrible. I just don’t feel the spark, and I genuinely want to break up with him. The problem is, I have no idea how to actually do it without feeling like the worst person alive for hurting someone who cares about me.
And as if that wasn’t enough, I withdrew from my previous degree, gave NEET, and got into BSc Nursing. I’ve literally just started a completely new college, new course, new people and a completely different routine. Then came my trip through Kolkata, Andhra and Hyderabad, so my brain has basically been running on 2%.
That’s why writing got pushed aside. I haven’t abandoned my stories or Wattpad. I still want to write, finish my stories and come back properly. I just needed to deal with real life first.
Thank you to everyone who’s still here, waiting, reading and supporting my stories.
