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هیوادارم چێژ ببینیت نوسەرێکی باش و بەتوانایە دڵنیام چیرۆکی دڵخوازت دەدۆزیتەوە لە نیو چیرۆکەکانی وە تکایە وەک پشتگیریەک ڤۆت و فۆڵۆ لە بیرمەکە
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how is it that you have always been able to see into people's broken souls? after all, i think I'm learning from you.
today again people are testing my patience. i can't help it, it's as if your absence has revealed who they really are. this morning, for example, a friend decided it was the perfect time to give me "advice" on how to manage my life. as if she knows anything about what it's like to be me.
i still try to keep my composure. i went to the boutique and bought clothes that i'm sure you would have loved to see me wearing. it reminds me of those days when we used to walk together, laughing and enjoying every moment. sometimes, i catch myself thinking about what you would say about my fashion choices.
the coffee is cold, and even though i can't share it with you, i still save a place at the table, as if somehow you could be here.
i hope you are at peace, and that somehow you are guiding me through this chaos. i miss you more than words can express.
i finally found cain. i didn't think i'd ever say it, but i've really missed him, and i know you have too. he looks different, fresher, as if he has left behind everything that weighed us down. after everything that happened between us, it was a relief to see that he's grown up.
he has apologised for everything, and i have not hesitated to accept his apology and forgive him. sometimes time and distance can work wonders, don't you think? i have come to realise that some people really deserve a second chance, even after such a painful separation.
now, seeing it again, i realise that forgiveness is not always easy, but there are those who, despite their mistakes, show genuine change.
it's funny how, even in the midst of the confusion and pain, there is still a connection that cannot be ignored.
sometimes, i still wait for you to appear out of nowhere and tell me that everything will be okay.
or maybe i'm just too afraid to let you go... cuz everywhere i go it only leads me back to you.
how long will i put up with it? i'm just a ticking time bomb.
tomorrow i will be fine. tomorrow will be a good day. tomorrow i will be happy, that i will even take the time to take sunny for a walk, i will buy clothes because you know i love to buy clothes, and our baby and i will dress up cute, like when we were waiting for daddy to come home.
anyway... i think I'll try to sleep, which means i'll cry myself to sleep one more time.
i love you, luv.
it's ironic but i think it would be easier for me to allow myself to be sad instead of pretending to be strong as i have been doing for a long time.
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤTO
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤGROW
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤOLD
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤIN
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤ C. ♥︎
i'm so tired. it's, it's just like this wave washing over me, again and again. it knocks me down, and when i try to stand up, it just comes for me again. and i... it's just gonna drown me.
just so you know... i could never do that to you. it wasn't a promise, it's a feeling and my reality.
i'm listening to your favourite song. i dedicate it to you. ♥︎
i know exactly what you would say to me now if you were here, but the problem is that you are no longer here.
after all that pretending to be a bad person, maybe i am. i think you were the only thing that kept me on track.
i still don't understand how you were so patient with people. that's something i really admired about you.