NicoNicoNicotine:3 (@MacaroniGremlin)'s conversations

slowly shifting back into my cringey pjo/hoo/toa phase bc the show is going to be exciting but i also know that people will watch the show without reading the books and its gonna kill little 4th grade me and aaaaaaaaaa im just so not excited and so excited at the same time and i want to cry and laugh and smile and scream in anger at the same time. im so conflicted and im so scared of what the pjo fandom will turn into. it was a safe space for me for a long time and im so afraid of losing that hope that i held onto for so long. im just remembering how much i loved these characters and how i feel like theyre an old friend that i can fall back on when i felt sad. and theres NOTHING i can do about it haha.