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Note to self: Don't sleep on an airport sofa cuz your neck will make hate you for it if you do 

Mini vent/rant(?)
          
          Every time I think about possibly bringing 1 of my OCs back into the roleplay scene, I suddenly remember the bad experiences I had with it. It started off as some silly joke when I 1st started using them, got some teasing & I went along with it cuz it was funny. Then it fucking spiraled into him getting bullied daily & it continued until the others got bored & left the rp scene
          
          It was never anything personal, but I wish I had spoken up about it sooner. It's been months since they left the scene & it's been months since I completely revamped my OC, but I don't think I'll ever fully recover from it.
          
          Months of research & hyperfixation & projecting down the drain, replaced by 2 wks of hard research & even more changes until I was finally & MOSTLY satisfied with its background & personality.
          
          I miss using my OC. I miss using him a lot. I'm proud of them. I really am, but the thought/mention of those who caused/instigated the negative interactions still deeply upsets me. Ik that things very likely would've gotten better if I had spoken up when ik I was getting uncomfortable, but there's nothing I can do about it now.
          
          Also probably got permanent insecurity whenever I make new OCs so uh 
          
          Besides, some of my friends (who had the misfortune of watching & not being able to do anything about it) agreed that the constant was FUCKING BRUTAL.
          
          Anyway, rant/vent over. There aren't exactly any channels in most of the Discord servers I'm active in that I could've said all of that stuff anyway.

Just now realizing that I (aroacespec) don't feel uncomfortable when the suggestive/NSFW jokes go on for 30+ minutes with my current friend group. Probably cuz everyone stops when/if someone expresses discomfort, but I haven't once felt uncomfy whenever that happened
          
          :)

SCREAMING

BORFDAY TODAY YIPPEE

Probably not an original thought & idk how many ppl have thought of it, but I realized that words like "man", "dude", "bro", etc, get used like pronouns/neopronouns today.
          
          IT'S BRONOUNS! BRONOUNS I TELL YA! WHERE ARE MY FELLOW BRONOUN USERS AT?!

SO MY ENGLISH TEACHER MADE A NEW SEATING CHART EARLIER TODAY. WHEN I WENT OVER TO MY NEW SEAT, THE CLASSMATE THAT HAD TO SIT NEXT TO ASKED ME FOR MY PRONOUNS!
          
          I WAS SO CONFUSED/HAPPY & SAID "SHE/HIM" & SHE WAS LIKE "COOL. I USE SHE/HER" & OMG I JUST FELT SO VALIDATED AAAAAAHHH—

Don't you hate it whenever you ever get started on a drawing & then don't touch it for wks mostly cuz of art block, but also cuz of irl stuff?
          
          Yeah, me too. Me too.

Just remembered that I tried boba for the 1st time yesterday & it was watermelon flavored.
          
          Bobas too sweet for my liking :(

Character: *Exists.*
          Me: I love them. *Proceeds to traumatize them.*