MadisonBennett5

@ConsciousRoyal that is like the highest praise I’ve ever gotten thank you so much. I haven’t read that book or heard of it but I’m looked it up and I  want to read it now. I do take inspiration from nonlinear stories like Cloud Atlas (it literally fascinates me that in every timeline someone different says “I will not be subjected to criminal abuse”) and mix it with what I find inspiring about Beau is Afraid (where by the time you realize what MW Industries is, you’re entire perception of the first half of the movie changes and you’re to the part where they completely shift gears so disorienting that you want to watch the first half again to see how you missed the point).  It’s also inspired by psychological horror like Saltburn (the extremely unsettling desires of a person) to The Talented Mr. Ripley (lying as a form of rewriting your narrative) to Inception (building a dreamscape for someone else to navigate) to Black Mirror and episodes like Be Right Back that technically could happen but would it or…..? Shut Up and Dance which I will NEVER watched again bc it was so f’d up, but I dang sure haven’t forgotten about it after like 10 years. Or (one more) Baby Reindeer (which I think was also auto-fiction where you’re like “what the fuck did he just say? That didn’t really just happen”) type of psychological horror. This is a long reply but I’m just really honored that you said that

Have you ever read If On A Winter’s Night A Traveller by Italo Colvino?
            In which, a publishing error has meant that alternating chapters are from entirely different works of fiction, while the other chapters has the reader as a character trying to piece together what has happened to their book. 
            It’s weird, trippy, and your work reminds me of it.

Thank you for getting it. The pages ARE different every night. 

I decided to blend my journals with some poems and surrealist fiction I’ve been working on. Lmk what you think if you have time 

I'll definitely find a perfect app for it this is really something that should be out there and you seem like an amazing person

@vee4bringcahos12 thank you so much! That’s so kind of you. Yeah, I really just want to reach people who were like me during those stages of my life. I always wanted to read a book like this and I haven’t found one I connected with, so that’s why I’m willing to put my life out on display like this, even though it is very humbling and cringeworthy at times for me

I’m going to maybe publish on substack or medium 

I had to because the chapters from 16-18 I was a minor and it contained subject matter they thought was inappropriate so I took it down because I didn’t want my account to get banned  I’m sad about it too 

@vee4bringcahos12 That’s awesome! I’ll try to respond to any comments and thank you so much for reading.