Madixxx_The_Bat

This is Moon Darling 
          	I have access to Madixx’s account now 
          	Thank you all for the sweet and kind messages you’ve sent to him 
          	I’m sure he loves all of them

octavianshusband

@Madixxx_The_Bat Sending you love <3 Rest in Peace Madi.
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BearnelliFan6994

@Madixxx_The_Bat Sending you love from Kaua'i. May Madi rest in peace
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GAY-MOON-USER

@Madixxx_The_Bat I hope he rests in peace
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brxken_angel

I still miss you, I try not to come back here unless I really need to but it's getting really hard to actually believe you aren't here. I miss you so much it hurts. I have two songs on repeat that remind me so much of you and every time I hear them I love it and hate it at the same time. It's Orbiter and The Great Divide by Noah Kahan. You are in my bio of course. By the way, I made a new friend. His name was Kai and he reminded me of you but his girlfriend didn't want him talking to girls even though you know me, I would never do that to my boyfriend. He was just a friend, much like you. You were my best friend. I feel like I don't have anyone anymore. Bailey left, pretty much everyone left after you. It feels like it's my fault but I know it's not. I am not blaming myself but it feels like I just drift people away. I just want you to know, I am always thinking about you and how you made me laugh. How you made me feel. Everything. You made me feel like I was on the top of the world and I took it for granted, I took you for granted. I feel so empty, a piece of my heart was ripped out of my chest when you left. I just- I don't know... I miss you. I wish you told me what you were going through. Oh Madi... I was cleaning out my room and I found a note of what you said to me that time. It made me sad and laugh at the same time. It said Happy Gilmore, that was your favourite movie. I haven't been able to watch it... it also said "Spaghetti? Don't you want something else?" That made me laugh but Madi, no one else will understand the bond we had.. It just hurts.
          I'm sorry I couldn't help..

notrxce

Wow….I can’t believe it’s really been a year since you left 
          I’ve been thinking about you more and more everyday 
          It still hurts the same as I did the first day 
          I wish I could have done something to stop it all
          But I guess maybe we were just never meant to be 
          I love you still and I don’t think I’ll ever move on 
          I hope you’re resting easy Madi I’ll always love you

brxken_angel

Madi, hey..

brxken_angel

I'm so sorry. I hope you know I still think of you every single day. What happened still breaks my heart. You should've seen me when I heard about. Man, I was a mess. I was crying so hard and it was 2am or something crazy like that and I called my boyfriend because it wouldn't stop and he tried to make it better by saying maybe it's a joke because this thing happens all the time on wattpad. I'm sorry for not grieving you sooner but that doesn't mean I ever forgot about you. I've lost so many people over the years but you were the one person I couldn't bare to leave me so when you did my brain went to denial. I hope you know how much I loved you and how you made me feel so seen and heard. How you made me laugh when I was crying. How you shared your music taste with me and judged mine. How you complimented me and always knew if something was up. I know it's not anyone's fault you're not here anymore but if you are up there watching me, I want you to know that I'm still living for you. I've been self harming still but it's the only way for me to cope without doing what you did. Sometimes I hate Moon for it even though she doesn't deserve it. She's in just as much pain as me. That's why I'm going to make it better. I promise Madi. I love you and please rest well. We are all thinking about you and we definitely haven't forgotten you. Your soul is still with me every single day. You made a huge impact in my life and I know sometimes we drew a little too close to the line but Madi, I wish you knew that I did love you. I can't explain it but I did.
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Mystique_RavenX

Hey there… I feel so terrible! I never knew all of this ever happened! But I wish it never did, I know we didn’t know each other much, but I wished we could’ve talked more… Wish.. I could have .. done something…I hope to see you one day Madixx ｡°(°¯᷄◠¯᷅°)°｡