MadnessConsumes

No one understands because no one has it as hard as me. They will never understand how awful life is until they have literally lost everything. At least they have families and their friends are still alive. At least they actually have a house to sleep in and warm blankets to crawl under at night. I have none of that. So don't tell me you understand. Because nobody does and nobody ever will.

MadnessConsumes

Thanks for trying to cheer me up. But no one can ever make me feel better. Not after the horrible life I've lived.
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KatDog1230

Listen to me, you are going to get somewhere. It's okay if you don't remember being happy, as awful as that is. I know that you don't have a family and I know that your best friend was killed. I don't know how you live with the burdens you live with. But that just means you're strong. You are so strong that you found the courage to cry and now you can't find those tears again. Maybe you have been hardened and burnt, but don't you know that some seeds can't grow until they're burnt first? In a wildfire, all the bad trees die. All the good trees grow back again. You can get through this.
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MadnessConsumes

I find it funny that you say that. Because my WHOLE LIFE is a rough patch. I can barely get through an hour of it without feeling like I'm going to cry. And you know what the worst part is? I can't cry anymore because I've been hardened, burnt to a crisp so I can't feel anymore. I don't remember the last time I laughed. I don't remember the last time I felt happy. I don't know how to keep going and even if I do what if I never get anywhere at all?!
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MadnessConsumes

Thank you. Really. Thank you. I understand, so much. I understand being suffocated by yourself and losing your grip because the ledge is slippery from all your crying. And that's not just metaphorical. I hate myself and I need someone to talk to because if I don't speak I'm afraid I'll fall into the background, too far into the shadows for anyone to see me. Thank you for trying to help, for trying to pull me up from my bed where I spill the most emotions. I really do appreciate someone being able to understand me. And that poem you posted, To This Day, makes me tear up everytime I read it because I can relate so much it hurts. Thank you, again. If you need someone to talk to, I'll be that person. But you have to promise you'll be that person for me

MadnessConsumes

No one understands because no one has it as hard as me. They will never understand how awful life is until they have literally lost everything. At least they have families and their friends are still alive. At least they actually have a house to sleep in and warm blankets to crawl under at night. I have none of that. So don't tell me you understand. Because nobody does and nobody ever will.

MadnessConsumes

Thanks for trying to cheer me up. But no one can ever make me feel better. Not after the horrible life I've lived.
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KatDog1230

Listen to me, you are going to get somewhere. It's okay if you don't remember being happy, as awful as that is. I know that you don't have a family and I know that your best friend was killed. I don't know how you live with the burdens you live with. But that just means you're strong. You are so strong that you found the courage to cry and now you can't find those tears again. Maybe you have been hardened and burnt, but don't you know that some seeds can't grow until they're burnt first? In a wildfire, all the bad trees die. All the good trees grow back again. You can get through this.
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MadnessConsumes

I find it funny that you say that. Because my WHOLE LIFE is a rough patch. I can barely get through an hour of it without feeling like I'm going to cry. And you know what the worst part is? I can't cry anymore because I've been hardened, burnt to a crisp so I can't feel anymore. I don't remember the last time I laughed. I don't remember the last time I felt happy. I don't know how to keep going and even if I do what if I never get anywhere at all?!
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