Anyways heres a rant about literally everything, ignore if you want.
The urge to disappoint my parents is strong. Home life has just been overall shitty lately so yah. At least I got my plants here, and my stuffed animals.
Second rant topic: I PRAY TO WHATEVER GODS THERE ARE THAT I AM NOT AROMANTIC. I WANT TO LIKE SOMEONE ROMANTICALLY SO BAD, I WANT TO STAY UP LATE TALKING WITH SOMEONE AND I WANNA GO ON DATES AND ALL THAT CUTE STUFF. LIKE SO. HEKKING. BAD. I MEAN I KNOW IM ACE BUT LIKE PLEASE DONT BE ARO.
And lastly, topic three: how come there are no people that are my "type"(I think??? idk if I even have a type, or if this would count as a type) I just want someone who is a total sweetheart and will be the day to my night, the extrovert to my halfway introvert. Someone who is accepting of the intense urge for me to make my room into a flipping jungle with house plants. Does someone like this even exist??
And last topic: Why am I so scared to open my third eye? Ok, I know shadow people, and that theyre gonna be scary and probably give me trauma but like the benefits outweigh the bad things. Sure the astral realm is scary, but you also get to know things. And you can SHIFT. LIKE YES, TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS HELL. And I could see auras, and I could sense energies, and casually talk with random entities that I encounter.
ANYWAYS, dont worry about me, im in a terrible mental state but I have been for the past 3 years and I'm still here so I should be here long enough to make everyone I know mad so they dont like me anymore. They finna come to my funeral and be like "thank god that bitch is gone" lmao anyways go back to reading your X readers or your crackfics or whatever
