Mae

People treat me like a dime 
          
          It is like my life is a rhyme
          
          I try to fit in but they push me aside
          
          It like like someone kicked me in the side
          
          No matter how many times I try 
          
          I feel like  I am going to die
          
          My friends think I am fun
          
          But the pain has only begun 
          
          I think it will be over soon 
          
          But what do I now I am only a buffoon 
          
          So I ask myself this question
          
          How much is my life worth?

Hey child 
          Guess what

https://www.wattpad.com/532028613-poems-how-much-is-my-life-worth

https://www.wattpad.com/user/Riverdalefan_2002

@Depressed_Version .

Wattpad stop being a dick please

Dude. Stop with the putting yourself down.
          I will kick your ass!

Like I am having a major problem. I'm scared. I promised someone that I was close to that I'd protect his girlfriend and now I am only causing her pain. And this is what I think about.   Every second. I always feel I failed him. He died because I said he needed alone time with his mother (his murderer *accidental*) . He could have survived. That was the first time I failed at protecting his girlfriend. (Who will not be named) now I just make her life hell.

What do I do. I feel a major panic attack starting. Unequal breaths. Shaking body. All that's left is loss of control and wet eyes

Alrighty. I cannot sleep. My bff is mad at me because I joked around about missing my appointments. If I am comfortable with joking around, that means I know I will get better from this stupid shit. 
          I understand why she is mad. So now I feel stupid and I keep having panic attacks and shit.
          I'm so tired of fake people.
          I mean Izzy isn't fake. But other people are. I mean. Every time I think I like someone, I find out they were lying and shit. Why can't I find a decent girl?!.
          Someone just talk to me. I'm so tired and my mind is racing. 
          Luv y'all 
          Mae