To the partner I want so bad, you are my best friend but still you torture me and you are cluelessly unaware of your poison. Your voice too light for my dark obis. Your laugh too happy for my sad life. Your body too beautiful for my ugliness. You are something that I want so much but you never come back to me the way I always try and follow you. I'm a vampire and I know I will die if I'm in the light for too long, but as long as you're there for just a short second. I will survive it. You look like everything I've ever wanted, because you are everything I've ever wanted. I remember you kissed me under the mistletoe, I was 12 and you 13, but I go back to that moment and think, what might be. I remember every hug, I at least remember wanting to hold you longer. Every holiday you and I were inseparable, but I am too miserable. I love you but you'll never know that, because you have always been the partner I want so bad.