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*clock where i am hits midnight*
WOOOOOOOOOOOOO, ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYY
FINALLY
hi! im not dead! just inactive here, sorry
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i just need to put this here
just a rant
you can move on
Don't you hate it when your own MOTHER invalidates your feelings? You feel mad? Frustrated? Stressed? Too bad, those aren't a thing, I have no reason to feel those things, SHE is the one who deserved to be stressed, she's a MOTHER. It's not like stress is experienced by everyone in different ways and everyone reacts to different situations differently. Oh no, let's just focus on HER every slight inconvenience. You feel scared? Nope, just lazy. Feel like nothing is fair? Sorry life isn't fair so get over it, even though SHE is the one playing favirents and getting herself all pampered up and going on trips all of the time and constantly complaining that it's US kids making us broke and we’re just lazy slackers.
She never asks about our opinions on ANYTHING, she yells at us about how horrible we are and how much of a waste we are and how lazy we are. And when we try to defend ourselves? She whines on and on about oh we called her a terrible mother and shes the villain and gos on about how we are children and we dont know anything and how stupid we are because we are just kids. She always denies saying those things but we all hear them.
The only time she EVER cares about our feelings is when we have finally just have a mental breakdown. THEN she tells us in this soft voice we never hear about how dumb the reason for our breakdown is and how SHE should be the one breaking down because SHE has it so hard and we got it SO easy. She never asks why we break down.
She doesn't want to
She doesn't care to
*inhale*
I don't blame her
Because shes broken to
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I have listened to her stories of her life and her actions perfectly mirror her moms and how she was treated. She wanted to control her life and those closely connected to it, our lives. I don't know if she thinks that her mothers way worked or if she expects us to end up like her. Or even if she realizes that at all. I'm not very good at analyzing people and their actions but there are a few things I do know.
Whatever she thinks she is doing right, is not working for me. It never has. And its pushing me away from her
I don't blame her
But she needs to just accept that she is broken too. So she can let others help her
Because I can't
Because one day i'm not going to just snap, i'm going to explode
And hope she realizes what she did wrong when I do
She may have succeeded in keeping me alive
But she did everything else wrong
She may have been my parent
But she is NOT my mother
Not anymore
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I HAVE BEEN ON WATTPAD FOR 4 YEARS
WHAT-
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me with just about everything: i am not phased and all :D
me when i see a vid of someone getting slowing crushed in a springtrap suit and bleeding out while crying in pain: i sick now help-
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just a quote i made up.
"a family is a bridge, with a person on either side, the bridge stills holds even if it's old or one side has fallen, because it can still be repaired, the only way the bridge is truly fully broken, is if all the bridges ends are burned, and all sides give up"
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hi guys. i know i havent been on...like at all.
ive been having a rough time with school and home life and just living in general
so not that anyone cares but...
im now a high school dropout
i just couldent do it anymore
i was to far behind and to streased out
so....
ya...
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Yeah…I haven’t been on in a while, I just needed a break, I will check back every so often
Anyways hope you guys have a merry Christmas!
And a happy new year
Let’s March onward to 2022
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nearly died
(dont worry im fine now)
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I’m stressed
School, work, home, mentally
I need a break
Like a five week long vacation
Preferably somewhere in a small town in the middle of the mountains
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i buried her, i buried Angle
i got to see her for the first and last time
she was perfect
perfect in every way
i love her
even if i never get to see her while i live
at least i know what she looked like
she was beautiful
my perfect Midnight Angle