Author's Note:
This new chapter took a bit out of me. I've listened, heartbroken, as a man broke down and told his truth of how it felt being raised by his abusive father. He felt so helpless as a child and used to daydream of ways to kill his father and save his mother. He'd dream these thoughts but his cold fear of his father's brutality caused him to stutter and to wet the bed as a child bringing him even more beatings. As a child he'd convinced himself that he'd never be able to rise up and fight his way to safety so he tucked into an addiction to weed and video games so that he was always mellow enough to keep his thoughts at bay and his mind occupied with constant plays via video gaming...that he never even had time to think about all the bad stuff.
In essence...his growth into a man was stunted by someone trying to beat a boy child into "manning up."
Off to do some day drinking! Smooches!
