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Listen to all of those people who cries them self to sleep, or cuts their wrist wishing their life's would be over. I know exactly how you feel, you may have heard this a thousand time before but I mean it, there been nights were I would bring a knife to my chest or a gun to my head. But then a soon as I was about to pull the trigger a thought came through my head, Why am I doing this? And then I would say to myself, "Because I'm worthless and no one likes me." And then that voice said what about your friends? Then their smiling faces appeared in my brain, I put my gun down and thought that I should explain what happened to me to you. I realized that I have people to live for, it may not be my family, it may not be my friends (I do love my friends to death tho), But it's you guys. Then I realized if I killed myself how much guilt I would bring to my friends, and you guys, and it goes the same for you. I may not know your name or how you act but still, you mean they world to me, You guys are the reason im still living. And you may feel like your a tiny droplet in an ocean of people but if that's how you feel then I will row through any storm to find you and make you feel loved. I hate when people think there worthless, because I know how that felt. Back in Puerto rico (where I was born) It was though, I had to go to sleep every night with a knife under my pillow wondering if I would get out alive. But I did, because I am a Fucking fighter. And if anyone ever tried to mess with me I would beat there ass, because it was the world against a small helpless five year old. My dad was dead and my family was barely alive, but we made it and that's all that mattered and if a five year old can do it so can you. But anyway I just wanted to thank you for making it this far, your doing great and if anything happens know that I am here for you no matter what. I got you fam <3