Makaila

Man, it feels so weird that Thanksgiving is coming up and that November is almost over with XD I don't like it, it's scary, and with how fast November has flown by, I'd imagine that December will be the same way and that 2025 will be approaching us quicker than we think.... I don't like it at all jfjdjhshs
          
          BUT!! I did wanna hop on here and say that I'm thankful for so many of you, even if I'm not active on here much anymore and talk a bunch. I miss the DMs despite the lag that came with them :( But anyways, I'm so happy y'all have stuck around my profile for so long, and if y'all have stayed around ever since the beginning of my Wattpad journey... I feel so horrible for y'all :sob: I was NOT the brightest person and was so angry a lot, and... yeahhh it wasn't the best time for people to get to know me jfjfjdhsh I was so mean for no reason, and I didn't know how Wattpad worked so I would always make "books" when they could've been announcements, and... yeah just... not good times. I'd be surprised if anybody is still around from then pfft, but either way, no matter how long y'all have stayed, I'm so happy to have you guys in my life!! You are all truly amazing and I love you all so much <33
          
          Despite negative memories about my beginning of Wattpad, I remember how I met some of my support family children and support family siblings on here! And, of course, I've made such lovely friends on here, aka a lot of you guys, and... man, this would be more fitting ON Thanksgiving day lol, but I'm still just so thankful for y'all. Thank you for reading some of my "books"; thank you to most of you who are my friends; thank you for everything. I hope I'll be a bit more active on here and talk with y'all more, but... yeah, this is getting lengthy, so I'll stop here.
          
          I hope you guys have a lovely day, and I love you lots <33

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Hellooo everybody!! Happy Halloweeeeen! <33 I hope you're all having a good day so far!! What are your plans for Halloween, if any? Got any costume ideas??
          
          I never really thought of what I wanna be this year and actually wanted to get a Toko Fukawa cosplay (funny enough since she's on my profile lol), but... apparently we don't have any money on Amazon when I thought we did? It's fine though, I'm sure I can get her cosplay another time, but on the bright side, I have a replacement cosplay!! I'm planning on going as Kuchisake-Onna again this year, except... hopefully it looks way better than it did in previous years when I dressed up as her. I have a dress in mind, but I just need to get makeup and a long jacket or trenchcoat... I don't think trenchcoats are available right now, so I may just get a long jacket, but I dunno.
          
          Unfortunately, I won't have tons of freetime today though since I have work, can't remember if I mentioned I'm working now, but yeah, I am! XD Anyways though, yeah, that's later on today, but I'm hoping to still be able to go out with my family if we can... I was also wanting to do some drawings of my OCs and/or persona, but I have little motivation to draw right now.
          
          All together though, I hope y'all have a lovely Halloween!! Stay safe <33

Hello again guys!! :D It's been a little bit once again pfft but this time, I have some great news to share with y'all regarding one of my OCs! I know I talk about them a lot, and I apologize if it gets annoying to read at all; I just enjoy talking about them a lot. Aside from that though, I'm gonna get on with it now
          
          Today is one of my OCs Sally's birthday!! :D I'd LOVE to do a drawing of her, but... I can only think of like... headshot stuff... like a quick sketch kind of thing but not a full body drawing or anything like that. I've been trying to think of what to draw her in for a pose, but obviously, I've failed and can't think of anything. I feel kinda bad cuz I was able to make stuff like- 2 years ago or last year but I'm unable to think of anything for this year :/
          
          Buuuut, if you guys would like to, I'm willing to answer any questions you guys may have for her!! :] If you can't think of anything, that's fine, but I'd appreciate some questions or even simple comments about her if y'all can do that
          
          Sally: Hello everybody!! I don't know too much of what to say I'll be honest, haha, but... yeah! My birthday has been going pretty decent so far, and I haven't been doing too much, but I'm planning on visiting some family and friends soon! I hope you guys are having a good day so far :) I love you all!!

Woah another month of me not talking on here pfftjgjfjfjdj hiii guys I'm here :D It's September now... UGHHHH it feels so weird I hate it
          
          My mind is still in August not gonna lie, it feels like that month and... pretty much this whole year has gone by so quickly and it's hella scary kgkfdjsjs I'm also not exactly looking forward to my birthday next month... like what do you mean I'm almost 20 I'm still a teen girl :(( UGH JUST SAYING THAT SCARES ME
          
          Anywaaaays, I'm still sleepy, buuut I have my appointment tomorrow!! Yayyy I hope it goes well, and if I remember, or if anybody wants to know, I'll update y'all tomorrow on what they say :D This week is gonna be hella busy, cuz I got that appointment tomorrow, then on Wednesday, I'm getting a psychological test done mainly for ADHD cuz momma thinks that could be why I'm tired (which I don't think so but okay), aaaand I have a gastroenterologist appointment on Thursday cuz I feel like I still could have (sorry if this is TMI) IBS, so... yeah, busy week jgkfdjsj buuuut for the right reasons, of course :D Oh yeah!! Fun fact about the psychological testing stuff, it'll be at my old therapy place! Momma tried getting me in with my old therapist, but she wasn't available for anytime soon :( But that's okay
          
          Wow, that's a lot for me to type, sorry about that XD I hope y'all are doing well though!! I miss DMs on here :/ Anyways sorry pfft I hope y'all have a great day <33

Heyyy guys it's finally August wowza :D
          
          I don't come on here a bunch sadly, but I miss you guys a lot :(( I've been nothing but tired all Summer and it sucks... I got blood tests done and apparently everything's fine, so I have no idea why I'm so sleepy. Even now, I am. I wanna get a sleep specialist but I dunno, apparently they cost a lot :/
          
          But anyways I hope y'all are having a good Summer so far!! Lemme know what y'all are/have been doing if you'd like <33

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Gah dayum it's kinda empty on here :(
          
          Anyways, I hope y'all are doing good! I hope you guys are having a good Summer and Pride Month :) If you'd like, tell me what Summer plans you may have!!

Weeeelp, today's the day guys, I'm going to the doctors!!
          
          As... sort of exciting as it is to finally, well, potentially figure out what's wrong, I'm really scared TwT I HATE having to do medical tests and I don't wanna have them do that on me, my heart is racing thinking about it. I hope it's just a simple upset stomach that decided to last for some days mixed with other things like anxiety and not taking my meds
          
          I'm genuinely REALLY scared I hope things will be okay and it's not something big like gastritis or like... fuckin... I dunno... something that's dangerous

Sooooo, quick update...
          
          I'm still not feeling great :/ Although, I've noticed that, once I eat, the churning and most of the symptoms kinda go away for a very short time, then it returns
          
          My anxiety is still going through the roof so that's not helping at all, and I've been doing nothing but going through symptom checkers all day today
          
          Thankfully though, my dad is willing to take me to MercyCare (urgent care place) since our usual doctors office isn't open until Monday, and I just wanna get this figured out as soon as possible. As childish as this sounds, I'm hoping I don't need tests done. I also feel really guilty cuz my dad sounded mad at me for telling him how I've been feeling again :(( He was telling me that I "always do this" and "as soon as I don't feel good or feel slightly off, I start freaking out" which he's not wrong, but... he sounded mad
          
          He said he's not mad when I said sorry again, but anyways, I dunno how tomorrow will go. I just hope I'm not gonna have something severe