Mallowice
this masc is really something
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Attended my elem bestie's debut earlier. Taena, ang bigat sa pakiramdam umattend ng mga debut, knowing na gusto ko rin maranasan 'yon.
Mallowice
They tried their best pa rin naman to still celebrate my 18th birthday. Nagpagawa si papa ng 2 tier pink cake for me na may lamang 500 bills, which is 9k in total. Sorry pero hindi ko talaga mapigilang maging maldita tuwing birthday ko kasi how can I be happy knowing na I wasted another year of my life na naman?
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last year, planong kaming magkapamilya na lang ang mag-celebrate sa maliit lang na private resort. As in good for 15-20 persons lang yung place. Kaso masyadong masama sa akin yung tadhana, nagka-dengue si mama:). I kept quiet and pretended that it's okay lang na hindi na natuloy yung swimming sa private resort, tsaka paano ba naman ako magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob magsabi na gusto ko talaga mag-debut kung wala na akong kaibigan that time and naririnig ko sa magulang ko na problemado sila sa pera? Sino naman sana magiging bisita ko kung ganoon, 'di ba?
Mallowice
nadadama ko na naman ho ang birthday depression ko HAHAHAAHHAHA
Mallowice
Naguguluhan ako sa feelings ko dahil sa tarantadong 'to eh. He used to be my type way back 7th grade pedo hindi na ngayon, kaya naguguluhan ako kasi hindi siya attractive for me pero I feel at peace everytime tell my secrets with him. Tsaka hinding-hindi ako papatol sa kaibigan or naka-thing ng kakilala/kaibigan ko. That's a BIG NO and YUCKY. He's a red flag pa. I like his vulnerable side lang, the rest ay ew na.
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Tuwing umiiyak at nalulungkot ako, itong mokong na 'to talaga pumapasok sa isip ko. Siya lagi pinagsasabihan ko ng lahat ng nasa isip ko eh, at ganoon din siya. Unfortunately, because of his bad behavior, I cut him off.
Mallowice
Indeed, some people come into our lives not to stay but to help us grow into a better person, and then once their mission is complete, you guys will grow apart. It was a bittersweet feeling seeing my ex friends grow without me. All I can do is support them from afar because I know that once I try to reconnect with them, they won't acknowledge my presence anymore. Their phase of grieving over our friendship ending was long overdue. I just can't help but miss them from time to time when I see or hear something that reminds me of them.
Mallowice
kasalanan ata ng songs ng WTE na pinapatugtog ko kung bakit mas lalo akong naging senti ngayon AHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Mallowice
I'll make sure to enjoy every moment of my time in my college life. This time, I'll take my studies seriously and give my best while also having the time to have fun and explore Cagayan Valley with the right circle of friends. Regrets and self-blaming won't turn back the time I wasted. I only have 4 years left to enjoy my youth and being a student. I will make sure that this time, I won't regret anything.
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I just can't help but be sentimental these past few days:(. In a few weeks, I'm finally entering my college life, alone, in a new environment, far away from home. And it made me realize how fast time is. I haven't even enjoyed my teenage life very much, but next year, I'll be in my 20s already. I want to blame myself for locking myself up inside the house instead of making friends and spending time with them.
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OMG, I PASSED!!!!!!!
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never tried drinking alcohol, but I need one
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kwentos about this guy bsf of mine who I cut ties with a few months ago
A thread;
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nagtatampo ako sa dimple na 'to, hindi ako siniseen ampota. Bahala siya diyan, hindi ko ise-seen kapag mag-message ulit 'to mamaya.
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kapag ako nabigyan ng slot sa course ng state uni na 'to, paparamdam na ako sa friends kong ghinost ko hehe
Mallowice
Once you invalidate me or pointed out and made fun of my deepest insecurities, wala akong pake sa pinagsamahan natin, bye na talaga.
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Mama will go to Bohol in August!! Want to go with her, but hopefully wala pang pasok T^T.