Crimmy

My power was out for a few hours earlier and it’s making me think. There are people with far less than me, and I am bitching about the Wi-Fi being out. I think the outage reminded me that I am truly privileged in this life. I could’ve been born in a war torn country instead of the east coast of America like I am now. I’m truly grateful for everything I have.
          
          Stay mindful of yourself, and keep yourself in check.

I think my parents gave me more trauma than they’d like to take accountability for. They argue so much (they did when I was younger, and they still do now) that I begin to cry when I hear anyone argue. They’ve cut contact with so much of their individual families because of me (family I was extremely close to btw) so now I have a natural response to leave events or relationships early when I’m starting to have fun/get attached and my logic is that if I leave early, I won’t be hurt when in reality it hurts so much more. Back to the arguing thing, the arguing has gotten to such points at times that every few months I pack a small bag with clothes and stuff just in case my mom leaves my dad or I just need to get out and spend the night at a friends house.

My brother got like rly drunk or smth idk (he’s a grown ass man who does not live with me) and texted me that he’s gay. 11:54 pm on a fucking Friday I have a party to go to tomorrow. Fork found in fucking kitchen he’s married to his partner by the way.

I had to retake a test today and I was literally in there w/ my homeboy .. funniest shit ever but it was a state test so we couldn’t giggle at eachother nd shit  so like K, he had his phone and he was told to put it away so I yelled, quiet room btw, just us and some bitch I don’t like “OOOOHHH DOES K HAVE HIS PHONE? OOOOOOHHHHH HES IN TROUBLEEEE” ✌️ bro we are BOTH GUYS.

My iPad battery is so fried but I don’t wanna loose any of my data (aka my photos) (if I get a new iPad I can literally just airdrop my old pics to my new one) 
          My battery was 44% about 5 minutes ago and it’s 26% as I’m typing. 
          I’ve had it for 7 1/2 years tho and I’ve taken kinda ass care of it so no wonder it’s so fried but idk Ik my parents wouldn’t buy me a new iPad (we’re a Google family and the iPad was a gift)

I fucking love wattpad comment censorship because someone can say a slur and it won’t flag it but if I say “FUCK” it’ll say that my comment may be offensive

When you have a yumeship and refuse to use c.ai but your f/o is from a recent fandom and not from like 15 years ago so there’s no good fanfics of your f/o x reader/JOKE

Yeah nah my ex said we aren’t getting back together:( damn bru our teachers were rooting for us… HE BROKE UP W US OVER TEXT. Actually fuck this guy fuck you im gonna date women now I’m a men hater now fuck this guy 

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          My bf broke up with me/us
          This actually sucks
          He assured me that it wasn’t what Lily, jorja, or anyone else did. So that makes better ig :( he said he needed some time (he also said that he wouldn’t be opposed to getting back together when he feels better but he doesn’t know how long that’ll take) but liek I’m nervous D:
          

They’re (ifykyk) all arguing rn and I’m tryna go to sleep and I just heard Lily yell “HE JUST LOST HIS GENDER!!” I THINK AT ME? I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING??? JORJA AND LILY ARE IN A SCREAMING MATCH AND I JUST WANNA SLEEP