ManicSid

i wish that you'd look back for me. i spent my weeks staring at the screens, pouring over our old conversations when I was a part of your world, waiting on you. idk if im testing my patience or your friendship in this wait. i ought to look ahead and move the same as you, but i cant help you intruding my mind some quite moments of the day. i wish i had it in me to shut you out, but i know i cant. you're not the kind of person that one could easily forget

ManicSid

i wish that you'd look back for me. i spent my weeks staring at the screens, pouring over our old conversations when I was a part of your world, waiting on you. idk if im testing my patience or your friendship in this wait. i ought to look ahead and move the same as you, but i cant help you intruding my mind some quite moments of the day. i wish i had it in me to shut you out, but i know i cant. you're not the kind of person that one could easily forget

ManicSid

oh sajni re, kaise kate din raat. kaise ho tujhse baat. tere yaaaad satave re.
          
          i miss you, and i cant tell anyone. i miss you, and i cant write it anywhere except on this obscure corner of the internet one might not come across. i dont think ill ever hurt for a guy the way that ive hurt for you. i dont think ill ever love a sister the way ive loved you.

ManicSid

as i move through this early 20s limbo and gobble down on rom-coms and coming-of-age movies, id love to know about if you faced any adulthood transition crisis, any of your coming-of-age stories? treat this little corner as your own ranting void

ManicSid

today's dream really got me excited and broke my heart all over
          
          i dreamt that i was on a cruise with a bunch of people, a through and through party-kinda scene. that im still my awkward, shy self, but in this one im also the idiot who brought her mom to the party!! 
          
          anyways, the juiciest segment of the dream series was that i met a boy along the way<3
          that we didnt talk much at the start, but his friends were stubborn assholes who made him approach me. i learned that he was kind, ahem and real chivalrous and passionate as we talked and talked, as he held my hand in his palms, thumb brushing on my knuckles...just as he was about to lean into me to kiss me when
          
          SPLASHHHHHHHH
          
          Dream over. Khatam. Dead. My mumma towers over me yelling me to wake tf up. I swear my mum haunts both my dreams n my reality sometimes xd. (but she's my cutie)