Marcy Bug

miss u.
          i was cleaning my room up couple days ago & scrubs comes on & i just sat there stunned.
          
          it felt bizarre that you actually are gone. it took me awhile to take everything in.
          
          i miss everything about you & i recollected my memories with you.
          
          like how you were the first person to talk to me when i moved to this new unusual school.
          
          how you became my first official friend.
          how you were always there for me at school, because all the friends i had were assholes.
          how you always made annoying/funny jokes/puns.
          how you always bursted out singing in class or in the hallways.
          how you were always outgoing.
          how you were always loud.
          how you were always soo cheeky, you spoke your goddamn mind to teachers & students without giving two fucks because you honestly didnt care if you got in trouble if it was worth speaking of what you believe in.
          how you always told other students off when you've had enough.
          how you were best friends with the ac/dc, nirvana, band freak janitor.
          when we were cleaning out our lockers because we didnt get to in 5th period we all of a sudden started singing scrubs.
          
          how no one at chamberlain was fucking like you and will never be like you. they despise you because you were the most honest baddest bitch around.
          
          i love and miss you.
          xx mac daddy(;

Those nights staying up on the phone never meant a thing to you, it was just a sick game you played to mess with my mental health