ByHolly_124
Hey Mari. I know i’m probably the least person you'd like to talk to and i should probably stop msging you guys but i miss you, i miss our chats and i miss how happy you were to talk to me and how happy i was to talk to you.
I know i need to get over what happened and for the most part i have but its like any time i think of it i just get angry, i get angry at her for unfriending me before i could explain then i get sad at myself and i think ‘what am i doing with my life? I have so many opportunities and yet I'm choosing to think about one of my worst regrets.’
Schools been ok, i signed up for the decathlon team. I got cut from that, i wasn't too surprised, my head wasn't fully into that. I signed up for the school musical! Im waiting to hear back from that but i think I’ll be cut from that to. My acting isn't that good.
I keep waking up and checking my clock app. I know its been like two months but i don't do it on purpose, i’m just used to waking up and thinking about you, thinking about dmming you, its just normal. Ive tried to stop, i tried talking to mum about it but she just thinks i should be over it by now. Which is weird bc she just started learning about that kinda stuff and Uni. I never told you but mum got into University to study for counselling and phycology stuff, it’s rly interesting.
I read a new book series, it was pretty good. It was called Crescent City, it was also by Sarah J Maas. I know you probably think I'm stupid to still be reading her books but after what happened her books are the only reason i get out of bed. Shes releasing 2 new books soon, for the ACOTAR series, i cant wait. I hope my favourite ship gets together, they deserve happiness.
I’ve got to go to school soon, sorry for trauma dumping. I tried to get into counselling at my school so i don't do this but she said i was fine and that if i needed anything i could go find her but i feel like i cant and shed judge me if i did.
I miss you. Heaps. Wattpad wont let me write more.
ByHolly_124
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I forgot to add this part. i used to talk to you when stuff went bad at dads and no one really understood like you did but i broke my noselfharm sreak thingy. I dont know who to talk to about what happened. dads gotten really bad, he ah we got new neighbours recently and you can guess what happened there. I dont really want to write it down. Hes just been a real asshole, i might not go to his next weekend. I dont want to.
