Marrils

Had all these thoughts for few days now and the first time stepped out at night i saw a message 
          
          So im gonna open my heart 
          And my mind 
          To all these sweet dreams 
          To become a future 
          A life I will live in the future 
          And it’s going to happen forever 
          Cuz my heart decided to give itself to you 
          Ans I know you will take care of it <3

Life slapped me again 

No seriously just get better pls i literally can’t take anymore bad news over the next four months 

Life pls stop this madness I cannot handle it anymore 

When u cry at almost everything, eventually it gets useless 

No way my life is this bad and all of this is happening to me 

I may sound like a bad person but I really thought hating(or disliking) my family was a phase that would end when I reach my 20s but it actually got worse.. maybe because we don’t talk about anything or our differences at least so the tension got piled up to a point where we just ignore each other completely I dunno but I really really hope I move out quickly so I stop hating and actually miss them(I don’t know if im capable of missing them anyway….) pray for me ig.

Hi 
          
          So i dunno what the hell happened to my relationship she’s drifting away and my friends are taking pity on me, literally always inviting me to their facetime calls. Seriously they r making it worse, she says something nice.. they get so excited and tell me to adore her forever, she gets colder they tell me to break up…. I adore them but they play w my emotions as much as she does. Genuinely don’t know what to do anymore..

So so interesting that you’re telling me that I may have a tiny tiny tumor in my finger?!?! 
          
          As if I need more reason to hate my life even more 

I did it again 
          
          I fell in love with an online friend 
          At this point k!ll me it would hurt less