Marrils

I can’t believe what I just found out 

Five years ago I sent myself a future letter 
          
          Got it today and fuck
          Im so disappointed, my life is not what I thought it would be. i ruined my birthday and my life apparently 
          
          Im 22 btw

So 
          So
          So
          So
          Lonely 

Soo ur telling me pale waves are going on tour with LOUIS?? 

Sooooo im 22 

Im literally going through the worst time of my life right now, and I don’t even know if someone cares abt this, i just feel like my heart gonna burst out at any moment. and i really really need to be left alone sometimes but at the same time i need someone to talk to, I know I can’t speak to anyone cause I feel ashamed so I really don’t know what to do anymore 

Happy Eid  yall❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Put a finger down if u ever had a break up before valentines day and not only once but twice(literally one week and three weeks away) so u had to spend the day in ur bed or being harassed by fxcking men
          
          ☝️✊
          

I actually miss complaining abt my life here where nobody sees 

I Deactivated all my social apps yesterday 
          
          I dunno why tho, but I hope it would heal me a bit although im bored asf now