I somewhat am more familiar with this wattpad website lol :D
Throughout my existence I’ve only been able to express myself to writing, were I ran no risk of getting judged or criticized I have difficulty opening up to people because from past experiences, and well, by writing it down, I was free, not scared, and not worried about having it talk back to me haha. Yes somewhat weird, but soon word will get out. I’ll finally be taking a chance on myself, and type all my writings here just like I wrote them on my papers, I’ll write them here, editing nothing perhaps just the names lol.
I suffer from trust issues…but I’m slowly gaining that confidence and trust amongst others and I’m happy to say, they haven’t disappointed me & hopefully they wont
10 years in the making, 10 years in which my only support, my only confider, my only real friend, was paper and pen. Every other day, I sit down and just re-read everything that I’ve gathered throughout my existence, and can very much remember the day it happened re-reading it just reminds me to not let my guard down because sooner or later I’m going to get hurt haha…
Feelings come surging from within me, demanding to be acknowledged. Feelings of hatred, revenge, sadness, hurt…. damn them all.
I don’t let anyone read them, because even as I read them myself, I’m amazed at how I sound, so much hatred towards people who played an important role in my life, and the things they’ve done to me. I was forced though, to have one person read them...in which I felt violated because I didn’t want him to, but now, I want to let it all out. I want everyone to know, word must get out, they’ll be short stories, but I intend to just make it a story. A story about my life, and the events that lead me to be the way I am…some call me a bitch, some call me other names, some call me mean…well I wasn’t always like this..in fact, it started in 4th grade. The year when everything I once knew…would soon be everything I knew.
I seek no pity from people.