@MaruuYume But I’m always on the outside, always watching them from a distance. They laugh, they share, they lean on each other while I’m left standing there, pretending I belong. Every time I try to join in, it feels like I’m invisible. Like I’m not really there at all. Do they even notice when I’m quiet? When I retreat? Or is it easier for them to just let me slip away into the background, out of sight, out of mind? I’m so tired of feeling like I’m nothing more than a shadow in their lives, fading in and out, never truly a part of them.
It’s suffocating, this loneliness. This constant ache of knowing I’m surrounded by people who are supposed to care, but somehow, they don’t. I keep reaching out, grasping at whatever I can, trying to find something, someone to hold on to. But it’s like trying to catch smoke—my hands always slip through. The more I reach, the more I fall, and no one seems to notice. No one seems to care.
I want to be seen. I want to be loved. But I don’t know how to make them see me when I don’t even recognize myself anymore. The person I once was feels so far away. And maybe that’s it—I don’t belong in their circles because I don’t even belong to myself anymore. I’m losing pieces of me, little by little, and I’m so scared that soon, there won’t be anything left.
